D Talks #37

Alright, so, the other day I stood watch, and this time there were some people who weren’t from the barracks, helping deliver food to people who are under quarantine after returning from taking leave for the holidays. Lately, when people verbally harass me, I criticize their character, and if it’s a guy, I criticize how unmanly they are behaving, because I really can’t stand when a guy wants to stay things under their breath or not be direct. You know what, that’s my pet peeve. Anyway, so this group of people are talking, they are a bit older than people at the barracks, I’d say around my age and older; I’ve never seen these people at the barracks before. This group of people, and other people from the barracks were saying things to bother me, and luckily I had my voice recorder recording what people were saying. After talking for about a half hour or so, these people deliver food, and when they return, one of them say “oh, yeah, we took care of that,” which sounds like when that boot camp trainer told that guy to put urine in my water bottle. So I figured they probably went into my room and did something. They could easily get into my room because there’s a master key with the person in charge of the barracks. So after watch, I walk into my room and the light in the shower room somehow detects some motion, which it shouldn’t, unless it somehow detected a shadow movement from me entering the bedroom, and turns on; like I mentioned in D Talks #36, that light must be remotely controlled. Anyway, so I wash my hands, as I do whenever I return to my room, and I go to the shower room to dry my hands. By the way, the shower and the toilet are in separate rooms. I go to the shower room to dry my hands with a hand towel my sister sent me as part of a gift. Let me just show you how I found it.

You see how the tag is position on the outside fold of the towel and sticking up? I have NEVER left that towel like that. I always position the tag on the inside of the fold. So why did these people position my towel this way? Well like I said, there must be cameras in the room; in the shower room, in the toilet room, in the hallway, and in the bed and desk area. Monday was leg day for me at the gym and… I don’t want to write about this, but I really don’t have a choice… but I guess since leg exercises boost testosterone levels, and I do not masterbate… mostly because I have absolutely no privacy, I woke up in the middle of the night to use the restroom and I had to wait at least a minute in order to sit down. Can you imagine how bizarre of a situation this is? People actually watch me defecate and urinate, and if I’m constipated, everyone will know about it… it’s crazy. Anyway, so the next morning, everybody knew I had a boner… and I’m not joking. One of the tallest guy at the barracks has been standing next to me during muster or just walking close to me more than usual, as if to say that he has a bigger penis than I do, which is fine bro… you people shouldn’t even know that I had a boner. Anyway, so that’s why these people positioned the towel like that.

And then it was time for me to brush my teeth. I always smell my tooth brush before I brush my teeth because I don’t trust people. I don’t know why or how, but the toothbrush kind of smelled like wet dog to me. So I threw that toothbrush away and got another one. I’m not 100% sure if they messed with my toothbrush, but it’s possible. I am 100% sure they repositioned my towel though. And then just a couple of minutes ago (when I was writing this), I took a couple of vitamin C tables, and I tasted the slightest hint of urine. These tablets are formed by compressing powder, so it’s possible they could have put a drop or two of urine into the tablet, but then again, it could just be my mind playing tricks on me, so this is another suspicion.

So I wrote most of the above the day before writing this sentence, and since then, I’ve taken the time to listen to the audio recording of me standing watch. So initially, I wasn’t too sure of the reason for people’s behavior, but as usual, after listening to the recordings, my understanding of people’s behavior is more clear. So again, this group of people who I never see at the barracks were sent there to mess with me while I was on watch, under the guise of distributing meals to people on quarantine. They wanted to deter me from posting the audio recording of the tantrums, which was a reaction to posting the Sprint text conversation. I stood watch on December 30th, and I posted the Sprint text conversation on December 31st; the day after. It was also apparent to me that they wanted to harass me on behalf of the people who took me to the ER, as I had criticized their failure to properly mediate conflict. So this watch I stood is 4 hours in duration; that means the audio recording is 4 hours in duration. There are plenty of examples of verbal harassment that I can fish for between my interaction with that group of people and the examples I finally started to note a couple of hours after the start of the audio recording. With that said, there’s plenty for me to write about with my interaction with that group of people; and I guess that should remain the focus of this post. Unfortunately, listening and replaying the audio to make out what exactly is being said take a lot of time.

However, let me share really quick what I recorded today, which is a day after posting D Talks #36. So this guy in the room next to mine aggressively shouts “F**K Y*U!” and then says the name of the guy who could barely do pushups. I laughed, and I’m not even sure if I was laughing at this guy, but then he shouts again “F**K Y*U!” So I started my voice recorder and captured this guy clearly vocally acting out a suicide jump… super awful… anyway, he just slammed his door because he doesn’t like what I’m writing… cyberstalker issues.

Alright, so back to the voice recording of me standing watch that day with that group of people there. The audio doesn’t start until 3:30 because I muted all the unnecessary noise of me walking from my assigned room to where I need to stand watch. As soon as I get there, I’m met with grotesque behavior and language. There are multiple conversations going on, which makes it difficult to hear everything that’s being said. Some of the conversations aren’t even coherent, where I cannot make sense of the conversation. There are so many examples of verbal harassment, and I tend to notice more examples after replaying the audio several time. I tried to only note the clear and obvious examples.

Alright, so, between this sentence and the previous paragraph, I’ve listened to the audio recording more and have made more notes, and have also gone about my day. Today is another duty day for me. I woke up to muster in the morning. Stalkers are aware that I’m reviewing this audio and finding several examples of harassment. In the audio recording, a couple of guys say “good morning” to each other, which seems odd because it wasn’t really the morning any more. The reason people will say “good morning” is because it rhymes with “warning” which is something my dad started a couple of years ago. I was actually going to mention several weeks ago, that some guy walking past me said good morning to me and it was definitely past 1200 (it was on November 17th and it was after 1600). The reason he was saying good morning is because he wanted to “warn me” not to post to my blog. After that guy said good morning to me, I then asked someone, “is it the morning?” sort of laughing; it definitely wasn’t morning time. Anyway, so I took a shower after morning muster, and got out of the shower and then I started watching some internet videos. I think I’ve already mentioned that I believe that my YouTube feed is controlled. I see a video thumbnail from Fox News and there is someone who looks like someone I know. I thought it was strange so I clicked on the video, and the news anchor says “good morning” in a very strange way. So I’m convinced these stalkers reached out to Fox News. Heres the video:

Heres the thumbnail I saw:

Ok, now this is trippy. So I wanted to rewatch the video to hear the new anchor say “good morning” again. When I rewatched the video, the news anchor doesn’t say “good morning” at all! They must have edited the video. Now that’s glass lighting. Here’s a screenshot of when I rewatched the video:

So I don’t know if I already mentioned this, but I do not trust those YouTube stats and numbers. Anyway, I thought I had something there, but Fox edited the video, so the news anchor doesn’t say “good morning” any more. Also what’s strange is today I went to get some food, I was the only one in line, then someone walks up after me and gets kind of strangely and unnecessarily close to me, and then he tells me “good morning,” and it was still the morning, but it was everything else that was strange and kind of obvious that I was being stalked.

Some of the verbal harassment being said is clear. Where things are not clear, I wrote “sounds like…” in the annotations. Also, I reviewed D Talks #36 and noticed some of the annotation times didn’t align perfectly with actual audio, so I took some more time with these annotation to make sure they are better aligned with the audio. However, I’ve haven’t worked with audio with a duration of four hours before, and I’ve been experiencing some technical difficulties with the alignment of the audio to its own time. For example, I silenced the first 3 minutes and 30 seconds, and so the audio should start at 03:30, but actually start way before, at 01:28 for example. You might encounter this while listening to the audio. How I have been getting around this is by listening to the audio using SonicVisualizer, which you can download here. Download and listen to the audio using SonicVisualizer and you will not encounter this issue.

• 03:40 – some guy says “pee on me”
• 03:50 – some guy says “i got herpes”
• (Some more weird stuff.)
• 04:36 – the guy who is standing the watch before me tells me he doesn’t know my name, but everyone knows my name. Then I say something and I have absolutely no idea what I said LOL. I recall that I didn’t hear exactly what he said about my name, but he was trying to hand me the pen, and then I think I said “nah, nah” and pointed to the book log.
• 04:46 – some guy says he needs to wait for his Dominos pizza. So there’s some symbolism here, not sure if this guy was trying to allude to this symbolism, but he was most likely. So I have an uncle with cerebral palsy, and while playing dominos, the game, he would always say “keep it low,” meaning, keep me, it, low, as in low confidence or something. I didn’t realize this until people starting to allude to this a couple of years ago; I made the connection. People started to allude to this before I joined the Navy. My uncle is legally disabled, so this symbolism of dominos to alludes to the idea that I’m disabled because this harassment somehow causes so much emotional distress that it inhibits my ability to think or function, which is nonsense.
• 04:59 – some guy oddly and weakly says “off” and I eventually call him a girl at 05:02
• 05:14 – I mumble something to myself, and I have absolutely no idea what I said. 
• 05:44 – some girl says “it’s magical” and I’m sure it was directed at me, and she also kind of sounds like my younger sister, so it’s possible my younger sister told her to say this, but I’m not sure.
• 05:58 – some guy says “Kirk cain o’five” and that makes absolutely no sense in any context. I think he’s trying to allude to Kirko Bangz who made a song “Drank In My Cup” which again, reminds me of my younger sister.
• 06:00 – some guy starts telling someone about a duty driver and he says something about staying outside the building even though it’s cold, and then start mumbling some words. At this time, it’s not very cold outside, and if it was going to be cold at the time of these people waiting, then it’s still not cold enough so where a jacket wouldn’t keep you warm. Then his tone of how these people can wait outside even though it’s cold sounds mean and inconsiderate. The reason he’s saying this is because a couple of weeks ago, I was waiting outside for a driver. It was windy, and a bit chilly, and I didn’t bring a jacket or a sweater, nor did I want to go back to my room to get one, so I just walked back inside to wait. Also people allude to the cold as if to say I should be homeless or something. 
• 06:06 – some guy randomly says “meth” aloud and nothing else.
• 06:09 – some girl oddly says “I know.” If you’ve watched the show Shameless, there’s this guy who tells his sister he’s gay, and she replies “I know” so I think she was alluding to that.
• 06:19 – some guy randomly says “ow” aloud, probably to suggest that I’m hurt by what’s being said. To be honest, I probably heard 20% of everything was being said, and probably made sense of less than that. What I understood for sure though, was the sarcasm and insincerity. 
• 07:16 – so here is one of many incoherent dialogs. One guy says “you going to the…” something I can’t make out; sounds like he said “spocks” or slurs “box” instead of saying “spot.” The the other guy says “yeah I got a…” something I can’t make out; sounds like he said “microwave.” When I have time later, I’ll talk about the microwave story.
• 07:30 – so here it sounds like someone says the name of a family dog I had, her name was “Copper”… I don’t think I need to say anymore. Actually, that girl that keeps on talking says “oh yeah, oh yeah, right there”… I won’t explain.
• 07:32 – some guy says “probably want to play it safe” and then mumbles something, and then says “uniform” and then mumbles something more. 
• 07:51 – some guys says “I’m lonely” and then says “I’m alone”
• 08:00 – so here’s another incoherent dialog. I hear words, but the conversation makes no sense to me. The girl says “Uber … light him up … move to the back of the table and slave…” I know what she’s trying to message to me. So how I interpret this is she saying that I should drive for a living, and calling me a pedophile because I guess there’s this idea that pedophiles turn red as if they are constantly embarrassed or something, and then suggesting for me to work in the back of an office or work place where I’m not seen because nobody wants to see a pedophile, and then table is said because my father suggests that he was a good father because for sometime we would sit at the dinner table to eat dinner, and then she calls me a slave. If you’re wondering how I deal with this, I use logic. I’m not a pedophile, people will even tell me I’m not a pedophile and then call me a pedophile; people just want to cause emotional distress. Then regarding people suggesting what I should do with my life, it’s a free country, I’m not going to allow people to control my life because they can’t deal with their own envy. This is child abuse and bullying.
• 08:14 – sounds like the guy talking slurred his words to say “Tupac” when saying “2 o’clock”
• 08:19 – conversation continues between the guy and girl. Girl says “PJ’s” with an emphasis on the “P.” Then at 08:22 the girl says that she peed. , trying to make fun of me when I strangely wet the bed at the hospital.
• 08:29 – a couple of guys say good morning to each other, but it’s already about 1135. Listen to the tone of the first guy. It sounds like he’s saying “I’m warning.”
• 08:31 – some guy makes some strange noise, and I eventually call him a girl.
• 08:40 – seems like some guy is stuttering on purpose to make fun of the way I speak, sometimes. Kind of the same way the psychiatrist was making fun of the way I speak during that meeting I recorded and wrote about. If you have already listened to that voice recording of the meeting with the psychiatrist, you’ll hear many references to that conversation throughout this voice recording.
• 09:04 – someone in says “someone died… my mom’s dead.” Someone typically wouldn’t just say something like that casually aloud. Then at 09:07 some one says “depressed.” So, yeah, my mom died, and they are talking about it because they want to cause me emotional distress.
• 09:09 – the girl says “like that” and I’ve already explained why people say this, briefly though, it’s in reference to my mother being raped.
• 09:25 – I burped.
• 10:00 – some guy makes a screeching laugh, and I think he’s trying to sound like this mentor/family friend of mine. People have been making this kind of laugh for sometime now, I’d say, after I joined the Navy. He makes the same laugh at 10:23
• 10:09 – that girl says “he looks broke”
• 10:20 – some guy says “weak”
• 10:27 – that girl oddly says “I’m sorry”
• 10:31 – some guy says “suck ass… rape”
• 10:40 – some guy randomly says “focus”
• 10:44 – some guy randomly says “grow weed”
• 10:47 – some guys blurts out “Jew!”
• 10:56 – some guy randomly says “come” and says it as if he’s talking to a dog.  
• 10:59 – sounds like some guy says “you’re off”
• 11:18 – I say something. I have absolutely no idea what I said though, which is kind of frustrating.
• 11:25 – I clearly say “freedom of speech” probably because it felt like they were upset with me writing to my blog.
• 12:02 – sounds like some guy says “that hurt”
• 12:12 – that girl says the time, its around 1138, just noting to reiterate that one wouldn’t normally say “good morning” around that time.
• 12:17 – for some reason a guy projects his voice to say “taxi driver” but nothing else he says is clear or projected.
• 12:21 – I say something, and again, I have no idea what I said, super frustrating. I normally say lyrics to songs, but I still can’t figure out what I’m saying.
• 12:23 – that girl says “I’ll be getting home, right around, the Cardi B… you’re leaking” which makes no sense and is incoherent. She’s trying to tell me to go home.
• 12:28 – some guy says “go home” and then says “got him”
• 12:30 – some other guy says “yeah go home” or “I wanna go home”
• 12:32 – some guy clearly says “suicide”
• 12:32 – some guy says “Cadillac… pick me up” and I’m not exactly sure why, but I think it’s to intimidate
• 15:13 – sounds like some guy says “you devil” and then says “I’ll shoot you”
• 16:09 – sounds like some girl says to me “you’re poor”
• 16:35 – I reply saying “I see” and then I say something else which sounds like “I will” but it’s not clear, makes no sense, and I can’t figure out why I would say that; super frustrating.
• 17:12 – sounds like someone says “hurt” with a higher pitched voice
• 17:35 – for some reason some guy really puts an emphasis on “die” when saying… something
• 19:09 – some guy puts an emphasis on saying “five” and while most of what he said before that is clear, everything after that is not.
• 19:21 – some guy says “tomato” and then another guy says “lettuce, tomato.” They are saying tomato for a reason, and I’ll write about the tomato story some other time.
• 19:23 – some girl says “that hurt”
• 19:24 – some guy randomly says “pills”
• 19:27 – some guy says “dead… rape”
• 19:29 – some guy says “you’re dead… cry”
• 19:31 – some guy randomly shouts either “Tahoe” or “ajo.” Ajo means garlic in Spanish. Both of these words are sound bites that are said to me, however, I don’t have a solid understanding for the reason these words are said.
• 19:32 – some guy says “one drink” and then another guy says “Atlas” and the reason they saying this is because I have a friend who has a drinking problem and I met hm from playing soccer and the name of my soccer team was Atlas. How did they get this information? See, this is more assurance to me that these people are talking to people back at home, which was made possible via cyberstalking capabilities. I rarely speak with these people for them to have that kind of information from me.
• 19:33 – some guy randomly says “tomato” which is the second time I’ve heard that in the voice recording.
• 19:36 – some girl blurts out to me “you’re bi”
• 19:38 – sounds like some guy slurs “ill get him” instead of saying “all together” and then the girl replies “all together”
• 19:40 – some guy says “right here” and I think that was in reference to something. The voice recording from D Talks #26 has someone saying “right here;” the part where I said that it sounded too close to be distant and outside of the room. So I believe the reason people say “right here” is in reference to my uncle’s request to be shot. Super awful. I don’t want to write about this, but I have no choice. I believe someone shouted “stop!” as I was typing this.
• 19:42 – some guy randomly says “pills”
• 19:46 – some guy says “who?” This is another sound bite people say to allude to my father. By the way, as I’m typing all these annotations, someone was knocking on a door close to my room and they were knocking the same way my father knocks, to allude to my father.
• 19:48 – some girl says “he left” and I’m sure she was directing that at me.
• 20:08 – sounds like some guy says “you’re breaking”
• 20:15 – for some reason the girl says “he tried to kill me”… sounds odd
• 20:17 – sounds like some guy said “honor” which is also something people have been saying. It represents this idea that an idiotic college friend started. The idea is that I must do as my father and family wishes to honor my family; it’s a misconception.
• 20:39 – somebody whimpers something, as if to imply that I’m emotionally devastated by the verbal harassment. I eventually say “little girl.”
• 20:44 – some guy talks about taking a picture… probably referencing to the picture I took and wrote about of that office being closed when it should have been open so that I could rank up, which should happen automatically, and it’s been a couple of months and I still haven’t ranked up. This also isn’t the first time in this voice recording that pictures are mentioned.
• 21:00 – some guy oddly says “deer” probably referencing Bambi. The guy says “hey there dear” and nobody replies. 
• 21:03 – sounds like some guy says “you’re trash” and again at 21:07 and then some girl says “i’m not going out with you”
• 21:12 – some guy randomly says “in and out… there he is”
• 21:16 – that same girl tells me she doesn’t have her id, but she’s supposed to because it’s part of the uniform, or that’s what I was told.
• 21:34 – some guy says “thank you” and I don’t think it’s sincere
• 21:42 – some guy walks in with “silverware”… not really silverware, they are plastic utensils, but people say “silver” for a reason, and I’ll write about the silver story later.
• 23:30 – some guy whispers “I’m off”
• 23:57 – sounds like some guy said “Keesh” and then he says “malingering,” which means faking an illness. Then that girl says “I have PSD” instead of PTSD. I say “Jesus… all those muscles and still acting like a girl”
• 24:15 – that girl randomly says “is it off?”
• 24:25 – that girl counts 28, some guy confirms 28, and then the guy says 56. The girl says seem like a lot more water than necessary. I think they just want to voice those numbers.
• 24:40 – some guy blurts out “Keesh”
• 24:41 – some guy says “no” and he’s probably saying no because of what I wrote about the instructor and how I told him “no” when he was starting to harass me.
• 24:48 – some distant guy says “creatine” then a couple seconds later that same guy says “I rape…”
• 24:55 – that girl slurs her words to say “you are” instead of “there are”
• 25:02 – I say “Jesus!”
• 25:10 – some distant guy says “he is”
• 25:20 – that girl mumbles “I’m so faa” instead of “I’m so f**ked”
• 25:23 – some guy nervously says “never mind” and it’s directed at me because he was trying to tell me to change my mind on posting the tantrums.
• 25:30 – notice how many times they say “silverware” throughout this voice recording. Would people normally call them silverware? I haven’t heard anybody refer to them as utensils, and the box calls them cutlery.
• 25:32 – sounds like the girl says “MiO,” that water enhancer I wrote about, instead of “meals.”
• 25:35 – I ask one of the barracks leaders if I have to log him in, and he says maybe and something else and continues to walk away. I ask “what?” but he ignores me. He’s probably acting that way because he’s upset that I criticized leadership on their failure to mediate conflict. I rarely interact with this barracks leader. He’s not one of the main leaders, which is why I asked if I had to log him in. I don’t think he was involved in having me taken to the psych ward, so my criticism most likely doesn’t include him. I might as well add that if you’re going to be a leader, you should probably learn how to probably handle criticism because it comes with the territory, among other things.
• 25:41 – after that barracks leader ignores me, that girl says “they are listening… break”
• 25:43 – some guy in the distance says “I got lard… kids” … how that makes any sense in any context, I’m not sure… but it makes sense to me, and I know he’s getting this from my family.
• 25:48 – sounds some guy says “you are?”
• 26:13 – some guy says “please come” in a weird voice
• 26:31 – some guy thanks these people, and the reason he’s thanking them is for showing up at the barracks to harass me. Then the girl says “not a problem” and then acts out noises as if she’s hurt or something, and then she says “you’re about to die” at 26:35.
• 26:46 – someone says “Keesh”
• 27:19 – some guy says “imma celebrity”
• 27:23 – some guy says “dead”
• 27:26 – some guy says “I’m evil”
• 27:31 – sounds like some guy says “off”
• 27:41 – I ask about the food a guy from the barracks had delivered
• 28:22 – some guy says “leave”
• 28:24 – some guy says “he is?”
• 28:32 – sounds like another insincere “thank you” to me
• 29:04 – someone says “off”
• 29:05 – someone says “you are”
• 29:10 – someone says “get back”
• 20:11 – someone says “Jennifer,” I’m not sure exactly why yet, but when I know for sure, I’ll write about it.
• 29:13 – sounds like a guy tries to say “Obama”
• 29:16 – sounds like some guy says “locksmith” probably because he wants me to know that they are going to go into my room.
• 29:18 – sounds like some guy says “leave”
• 29:23 – sounds like some girl says “you’re bi”
• 29:24 – sounds like some guy says “lock, key”

That’s just the first 30 minutes of the voice recording, and there’s so much more… and I was sent deceitfully taken to the ER and falsely admitted to a psych ward after complaining about this kind of behavior… absolute insanity!