January 26, 2021
So, yesterday, I sent out a tweet on Twitter with a link to D Talks #50, because Bluehost has yet to update my website with the latest revision. When I sent out the tweet, something strange happened, and it could possibly be a “glitch,” but nonetheless, it’s suspicious. I sent out the tweet, and the tweet didn’t appear on the list of tweets on my profile page, but the number of tweets did increase by one. So I clicked on the feed page, and the tweet was there. As of now, the tweet is still not on the ‘tweets’ page, but is on the ‘tweets & replies’ page. This isn’t the first time this has happened when I’ve sent out tweets. This is probably the second time. The first time is when I sent out a tweet about Pandora, the online music streaming service. So I decided to retweet to see if the retweet would show up on the tweets page, and the retweet did actually show up on the tweets page. So again, I’m not sure if this is a “glitch,” not sure if anyone else has experienced this, but I figured I might as well mention it.
some retaliation to D Talks #50, and the number thirteen
Today is another duty day for me, and during morning muster, my name wasn’t called. The name called before mine, was a no show, so their name was called twice, with no answer to both calls, and then my, last name, was skipped over. Apparently, this was a mistake. The person calling out names said my name was called, and then looked at the list, put an ‘x’ next to my name… and… I don’t recall exactly much after that, but it seemed fake to me. The reason I think my, last name, wasn’t called during today’s muster is because of what I wrote in D Talks #50 regarding the number thirteen… I also mentioned how my roommate was saying those things in the morning, yesterday. And even before I published D Talks #50, I received a text message from my sister, and I believe it was to deter me from mentioning the number thirteen, but then again, that’s just me speculating; my roommate did say those things though. Anyway, not sure if I’ll get around to tell the story behind the number thirteen in full in this post. However, regarding the number thirteen, if you know about me, you already know the story behind the number thirteen; it’s actually old news, not new news. What really troubles me though, is how the people around me want me not to talk about this. Not only is it none of their concern, instead of being neutral, they are definitely siding with the wrong side. I’d prefer if people just took a neutral stance, condemn what should be condemned if they want to, learn from the experience, make society better, and consider it old news.
I mentioned how my father, and even my sisters, will tell the people around me to do and say certain things to channel messages, and recently, those messages have been threats of harm and violence, or some kind of intimidation. I know we all have the challenge of confronting our fears, but giving into bullying crowd will only give one a false sense of fearlessness. This demonstrates the kind of person my father is. I can’t consider him a good person because he uses threats and intimidation, and encourages other people to use threats of violence, including the people around me. I think I’ve mentioned this before, but people will say the name of one of my sister’s ex boyfriends. My roommate has said this name at least a couple of times within the last couple of days, and actually, yesterday, when I followed up telling my roommate he is whispering, I told him he said this name, and he denied it by saying “why would I say…” this person’s name. You know what, while we’re on the topic, I might as well mention something briefly. One day, my father sent a message via Facebook to my sister’s ex boyfriend’s father. My sister’s ex boyfriend’s father placed a restraining order on my father. Anyway, so another brief example of recent threats is, this morning I was walking out of the barracks to get breakfast, and I said “go ashore” and it sounded like the person who was standing watch slurred his words to say “loan shark.” That’s what it sounded like to me. I know I slur my words at times, so I’ll make allowance for some doubt. However, I wouldn’t be surprised if my father told these people to say this. Actually, you know what, it seemed to me that someone was alluding to mail this morning, and then this person who might have said “loan shark” opened the door for me while holding a package. I’ll stop there because even though I’m convinced of this, it’s still speculation. However, I’ll note to write about the mailman story as one of the stories I want to write about, which is the primary reason people allude to mail, and is a factual story; no speculation there.
Anyway, the one thing I know about people who want to threaten others to control them or whatever… those who are behaving badly… those who are being evil don’t want to be seen as being evil. Some people are caught up in a dilemma where they want to be strong and good, but then for whatever reasons, human condition, may give in to an evil side, compromising with evil. Those who compromise with evil, don’t want to be seen as evil, so they will justify by demonizing the recipient of their evilness. Then the evil doer and the recipient of the evil, will then engage in a “halo war.”
verbal defense
And just to preface for what I’m going to write about next, I just want to be clear that I don’t want any problems with anybody, including my roommates. This recent roommate was quick to start harassing me right of the bat, and I wrote about it as soon as I could. I was even direct with this roommate, and told them that I was going to request a room change. This person was my roommate officially starting on the 12th of January. I spoke with barracks leaders on the 17th of January regarding a room change. I’ve been pointing out the whispers to my roommate, and finally yesterday, this roommate decided to be direct with me, and deny that he’s whispering anything; no surprise, but at least we are now speaking directly about it. Now, let’s consider a couple of things. Was this roommate called upon by others to fulfill this task to harass and bully me? I think so, and with that peer pressure, it would require a strong person to reject this task. So, it’s probably not all of his fault, this is definitely a collective effort. Actually, yesterday, someone walking past me said, “we broke him.” I replied with “we?” With that said though, it still doesn’t excuse this person’s bad behavior. So yesterday, as I wrote, I was on the phone, my roommate whispers “leave!” and I call him a “little girl.” I went online today, and hopefully I’m not reading into things, but it seems like people might be indirectly criticizing me for saying “little girl.” Why people don’t criticize these people for verbally harassing me, I’m not sure… actually, you know, I’m recalling now, after I posted the voice recording of me standing watch enduring all that verbal harassment, I did receive some support. I guess my point is, I don’t want to have to verbally defend myself against verbal harassment, but if I don’t, I’ll become a nervous wreck… I’ve been there. So hopefully I’m not reading into things, I’m not going to be specific with what I saw online, but those who want to criticize me for verbally defending myself are not helping mitigate conflict, especially when it’s just me, a cyberstalking victim, against a network of cyberstalkers. When bullies act like the victim… that ironic!
cyberstalking – MacBook Air
For some reason, the local WordPress application on my laptop is very very sluggish… it’s never been this sluggish, it wasn’t sluggish this morning, and as far as I understand… shouldn’t be this sluggish…
compromised stockbroker
Called the stockbroker for the third time and was on hold for an hour:
