So… it’s actually been a while since I’ve started a paragraph with “so.” Anyway, so, I’ve been vlogging lately, and not blogging, however, I want to write about and document several recent incidents, and leave the vlogging for the phases of the cyberstalking. (Someone outside my window just said “PewDiePie.”)
Hazing
So a couple of vlogs ago, I mentioned that I was going to file a formal complaint regarding bulling, harassment, and a hostile work environment. (Someone just whispered “look shot,” which probably explains the continued threats and harassment. By the way, the whisper was definitely a faint whisper, but I’ve heard people say this quite frequently, and that person saying “PewDiePie” outside my window, definitely said that loud and clear. Ever taken a hearing exam? Those can be tricky.) Just in case you haven’t seen Vlog #13, here’s briefly what led up to the formal complaint. As I’ve mentioned before, I go from one abusive situation to another abusive situation, caused by the cyberstalking, enduring verbal harassment, some of which is directly sourced by my family and friends afar, and delivered via third party by the people close to me. So after weeks in a new situation, enduring verbal harassment, and verbally defending myself at times, the harassment escalated. I guess those around me wanted to further the affect they could have on me. I heard one person talk about bullying me into depression, and another person talk about bullying me into quitting. Whatever the goal was, people resorted to encouraging drivers to act like they were going to hit me with their cars to and from my walk to work. The same week this illegal behavior started, someone indirectly says “I’ll shoot him.” I then asked if I could file a formal complaint. The thing about this is, before I was going to ask to file a formal complaint, people were aware I was going to ask to file a formal complaint, because they are cyberstalking me and could see that I added this to my notes, and people’s attitude changed; they know better and know they are misbehaving and didn’t want me to file a formal complaint. I was told “you’re fine” or “you’re okay,” indirectly of course. I was then given the wrong number to the person responsible for handling formal complaints.
The next day, I go to work and start working along side someone I’ve worked with before. I’m the helper, so this person is leading the tasks. Eventually, this person tells me to wait for something to finish, so I sit and wait. Basically, these people wanted to manipulate a situation to give them a reason to yell at me. So the person who said “I’ll shoot him” the day before tells me the person I was working with needed my help. I walk to see the workstation, and this person isn’t there. The person who threaten me is not in charge and would have no reason to be aware of my current task. So at that moment I was convinced this person who threatened me was blindly ordering me around to be bossy and spiteful since I asked to file a complaint. This person who threatened me returns from his break outside the building and tells me again that the person I was working with needed my help; he was acting like he didn’t know that I was already helping out, while in actuality, this was all a conspiracy to yell at me. I was convinced he had no idea what he was talking about. Then moments later, this person who threatened me started to violently yell at me using vulgar language ordering me around. I say, “what are you talking about?” and walked toward the workstation. The person who was actually in charge of the workstations blatantly looked away to turned a blind eye to the yelling, and that’s when I was convinced this was all a conspiracy to fabricate a reason to yell at me. I speak with the person I was working with, and nothing has changed; I still had to wait for a task to finish, so this person had no reason to yell at me. Since this was an effort to bully and demean in the guise of nonsensical ordering around, I noted on my phone that I was going to ask for an apology from the person in charge who turned a blind eye to the yelling, and from the person who yelled at me. So at the end of the day, I asked the person in charge for an apology for turning a blind eye to the yelling at me, as it was an effort to bully and harass. This person tells me that I wasn’t going to get an apology from him or the person who yelled at me, and starts to blame me for being violently yelled at, which is inexcusable intolerable behavior in any capacity. After negating this person’s reasoning, and making it clear that the yelling at me was to bully, I was yelled at even more. This person walks me to a near by office, tells people in the office to get out, tells me to get in, I walk in, he walks in after, and then closes the door and starts to yell at me, telling me to not speak and that it was a one way conversation. I repeatedly told this person not to yell at me and that I had rights, until this person stopped yelling at me. Ever seen watched that scene from that show called The Shield where two people enter a room to settle a dispute? I absolutely despise that scene… you don’t know how many times people around me want to figuratively emulate that scene with me. Anyway, so as I mentioned in the vlog, I’m sure my father encouraged this behavior, and I was later told by someone higher up to proceed with my formal complaint.
So I call the wrong number two times and left voice messages both times, both on separate days. I read the DOD Instructions on Hazing Prevention which describe procedures and policies. I sought out the correct number for the person I was trying to contact, and that’s when I realized I was given the wrong number. Could this have been by mistake? Sure. Do I think it was a mistake? Not at all. Anyway, so I call the two correct numbers available, both on separate days, and still wasn’t able to speak with the person I need to speak with to file a formal complaint. What’s more, this was after I was moved to a separate work space and efforts to deter me from filing a formal complaint, which included some flirting as well as verbal harassment. So I then call someone higher up the chain, and this person answers and tells me that they’ll see what they can do. Moments later, I received a call from the person I needed to speak with.
Formal Complaint
So, I finally got in contact with the person I needed to speak with to file this formal complaint, and we schedule a meeting the following day. After our phone call, I received a text message from someone who’s also responsible for handling formal complaints, asking me to write a statement. So I spent the rest of that day writing a statement regarding the harassment.
So the next morning, I meet with the main person who handles formal complaints, and the person who asked me to write a statement; let’s call this person the “assistant.” Anyway, I was, per my notes, “surprised by the insincere passive aggressive behavior” of the person who handles these formal complaints. It’s really to the point now where I can’t tell if these people are serious, or if they are just playing games. So at the start of the meeting, the main person reads through my statement. When this person is done reading through my statement, I start my narrative, and then the assistant arrives. During my narrative, I was direct with the main person and told this person I heard them say “soft” under their breath, and it’s that kind of behavior, and harassment I experience; by the way, the doctors called this under-the-breath verbal harassment “auditory hallucinations,” some facetiously, thank God. Anyway, this person denies it, and I told them they can deny it, I don’t have proof, but I do have proof of that kind of behavior. Anyway, so I continue with my narrative. It seemed as though these people also wanted to flirt with me to deter me from filing a formal complaint. They tell me they’ll need more detail; basically, I think they wanted me to write what my verbal defense was. I tell them adding more detail wouldn’t be a problem, especially since I only spent one evening drafting that statement.
That was a Friday morning. Later I receive a message from the main person to schedule a meeting on Monday morning to continue our discussion. So on Monday, I meet with this main person, and another person in charge of the main department I’m apart of, since I’m awaiting the medical board, which I was falsely referred to, and the misdiagnosis has been resolved… I’m not schizophrenic. Anyway, so I’m in the office with these two main people; the person in charge of the formal complaints and the person in charge of the department I’m apart of. I retell the story. The person in charge of my department asks me if I’ve spoken with my doctor. I say yes, and explain that I denied treatment, but I keep in contact with a technician, mostly to record our conversations to gather proof that I’m being stalked harasses, and this technician partakes in the harassment. This person in charge suggests that I schedule a meeting with the doctor, and I say no because this is an issue to be resolved with conflict mediation, and that it’s not a medical issue, as I have already been cleared of the diagnosis I was referred for. I also explain that I could have said nothing, but I now have undeniable proof that I’m being bullied and hazed, and that I want to file a formal complaint, and the last time I complained regarding harassment, I was falsely imprisoned. Then the main person for the complaints suggested an informal complaint, that of which I said would suffice; that I wanted to use the tools and mechanisms available to me to mitigate illegal behavior. I also explained that if I received an apology, I would probably only have reported the threat and not the yelling, but I didn’t just get yelled at once, I was yelled at once again, which demonstrates people’s harassment of me… but, on second thought, since the yelling was a day after being threatened, the yelling was to be reported.
Anyway, so this main person responsible for handling complaints convinces me to file an informal complaint and not a formal complaint. I only loosely agreed, I was going to be sure which one was best after doing some research. So we proceed with the informal complaint paperwork, which is in the form of a PDF. Before we get too far into it, I ask for clarity on the difference between an informal and formal complaint. The main person explains that informal is handled in-house, and formal is handled with a third party investigator. Then someone knocks on the door, and it’s the assistant. The assistant enters the office, and then something strange happens. Both the main person and the assistant start to make an effort to implicitly intimidate me. I guess it’s okay for me to reveal this; what made this even more strange was that both of these people were female. See, and this is why I’m not sure if people are serious or just playing games… (as I’m writing this, my roommate aggressively and clearly growled “leave!”… now he just said “you’re off”). I figured they were making an effort to intimidate me because of the content of my statement. In my statement, I wrote that the threats and verbal harassment were making me apprehensive and defensive, which is unhealthy and the reason hostile work environments are illegal… I don’t think these people had that understanding unfortunately. Being apprehensive is a natural human response to threats. There is no such thing as being “fearless.” What I learned from martial arts is to learn to master your fears… I don’t think these people have that understanding either, unfortunately. Sure, you’ll get a rise from preying on a vulnerable person, but when the rise wears off, will your fears be mastered any further? Anyway, so I then tell the main person that I would like to file the formal complaint, and gave some reasoning, including stating that I didn’t like the vibe I was getting from them, to acknowledge their efforts to intimidate. Anyway, so I forget exactly how that meeting ended, but I needed to finish adding more detail to the statement, and so I added more detail to the statement and emailed that early Tuesday morning.
Mental Health Evaluation #2
So after sending the updated statement on Tuesday, there were a couple of messages sent between me and the main person responsible for handling complaints. Basically, we were going to try to meet the next day, which was Wednesday. On Wednesday, I went to work and I was actually in a very good mood. After lunch, I was approached by a couple of people in charge, including the main person in charge of the department I’m apart of. The way they approached me seem kind of weird. They approached me as if I was being arrested. They told me that they had concerns that I was a “danger to myself and others” which is a generic statement and not specific, and that they were referring me to a mental health evaluation. So, I sensed that this was sketchy, but it took me a while to identify the sketchiness. So I cooperated and asked questions. I told them that I read the instructions on mental health evaluations and asked them if this is according to procedure. Things still seemed sketchy, and I’m was not fresh on the details of the instructions, so I couldn’t single out a reason to not cooperate. Then we finally approach the car. I know for a fact this MHE is being referred in bad faith. Per the instructions, MHE are to be referred in good faith. So, before getting into the car, I asked if I had a choice; because I know that there is a procedure to follow for both emergency and non-emergency MHE’s. If it’s an emergency, it must actually be an emergency. If it a non-emergency, all the supervisors can do is encourage someone to undergo a MHE. They told me this was an emergency MHE, but they didn’t tell me exactly why, all they said was the generic phrase written on the instructions which is, concerns of danger to self and/or others. So I said that I would have to see something in writing. The main person in charge of my department had an envelope, but wouldn’t show me the document inside. So I refused to get into the car, and I was then spoken to as if I was a dog. I was told to sit, and ordered around to do a couple of other things, that of which I said no thanks to. These people who were escorting me called the police. So the police show up. Why they called the police, I don’t know. They told me they were going to call the fire department, which made no sense to me, until people from the fire department showed up with a gurney. They were trying to cause a scene, to cause chaos, I guess to break me down, but I saw it as a pathetic, annoying joke, to be honest. It was like a scene from Reno 911.
So my main points were that I know this MHE is being referred in bad faith, most likely out of retaliation to my formal complaint, which is illegal, and that I would need to see something in writing that says that I would be breaking the law if I didn’t comply with this supposed “emergency” MHE. When the police showed up, I started voice recording. When the fire department paramedics showed up, the main person in charge of the department I’m apart of starts speaking with the paramedics with a whisper, about what’s going on with me. I explain to the police officer that by this person whispering, trying to keep their concerns about me a secret, is illegal. This MHE is being referred to me, and I have the right to know why I’m being referred. So this behavior, and other behaviors, made me without a doubt for sure this MHE was being referred in bad faith. So then the paramedics ask me a couple of questions, and as one of the paramedics turns away, to walk away, he says “kidnap” or something. So then they call over one of the main main people in charge, but not the principal person in charge; it was the person I called to get in contact with the person responsible for handling complaints. So this main main person in charge stops to chat with a couple of people before talking to me. This person says something about being “bisexual” which lets me know that I can’t trust this person as they are partaking in this bad faith effort. This main main person eventually approaches me and we talk. I told him this MHE was being referred in bad faith and that I would have to see something in writing. This person tells me their presence is that something in writing and that if I didn’t cooperate that I would be in violation of an order or something; which didn’t make sense to me. I further explained that I didn’t want to be in volition of any law or order, and that I know the emergency MHE is being referred in bad faith, especially because I heard this person say “bisexual” to a group of people before speaking with me, and that I wasn’t sure if I captured that in the voice recording. This person then gets upset and interrupts me and sternly asks me if I’m recording him on government property. I said yes, and that I was recording before he arrived, and that I started voice recording when the police arrived (I like police by the way). He tells me something about that being illegal and that I may get in trouble for voice recording on government property; which didn’t make sense to me. I explained that given the circumstances, even if it was illegal, I’m sure I won’t get in trouble being that it’s really my word against everyone else, and I’m the only person who can back my words. He tells me, in a different tone, I need quit acting like I’m so smart, and that I was going to be moved to a different building. He then tells me that if I didn’t go to this MHE that he would have the police arrest me; which didn’t make sense to me, and I’m sure would have been false arrest. Anyway, I said that I was going to take his word for it, but again, I believe the emergency referral for a MHE was being done in bad faith, and that last time I was referred for a MHE, it was in bad faith, and I was falsely imprisoned.
Anyway, so I cooperated. I got into the car and on the way to the hospital, I searched for the instruction online to review. After briefly reviewing the instruction, I told the people taking me to the hospital that this MHE was being referred in bad faith per the instructions; and by the behavior of others, it was obvious this was in bad faith. Being that the hospital falsely imprisoned me the last time I was referred for a MHE in bad faith, I’m was sure they wouldn’t make the same mistake of blindly partaking in this MHE in bad faith, especially since they are aware that my administrative claim for being falsely imprisoned is pending.
So we get to the hospital ER and we check in. The people who escorted me give the clerk the envelope. I asked to see what was in the envelope, and it was the statement I wrote regarding harassment. So I say that I was being referred to a MHE in bad faith and it’s out of retaliation for filing a complaint regarding harassment. So I ask the clerk if there was anyone available who is an expert on MHE procedures and policies, because the last time I was referred for a MHE, it was in bad faith, and I was falsely imprisoned. The clerk politely tells me she’ll ask the nurse in charge. Moments later, the nurse calls me and one of the escorts into an ER office and explains that the hospital needs a specific document with a signature from the principal person in charge. So I thank the nurse for explaining this, thinking I was going to go home, but then I was told that the document was on the way to the hospital. The document arrives and it’s given to the clerk, and I ask if I could see the document. The document had a generic statement stating evaluation for symptoms of a mental illness, not specifying any of the symptoms, had one signature, had a printed name, and everything else was left blank, and there were about thirty fields; I started laughing.
So all together, I probably waited in the ER waiting room for about 4 hours. The people who took me to the ER eventually left after an escort for me arrived. This escort was a coworker who was asked to watch me. This person waited with me in the ER waiting room for several hours, and then I was eventually called into the ER room, and then a different escort took over for a couple of hours, and then a third and final escort took over; all were coworkers. Anyway, so I speak with three different doctors, and they were taking their time. I was in the ER room for about another 4 hours. I made sure that I was going to go home that night. I asked if the evaluation was finished, and they said yes, but they were asking me to wait, but I didn’t want to wait; I wanted to go home and eat dinner. After they told me everything was clear, I told them I was leaving at a specific time. Since everything was clear, I decided not to wait for the discharge papers and left, despite them asking me to wait. One of the doctors said something about having to call security or something if I left. I said that I was a free person and they can’t contain me, and that I wanted to go home because I was hungry and I had food waiting for me. So I left, and the third escort was following me, then a police officer approaches us outside and asked to see my ID, and then said that I couldn’t go or something, and then I asked if I was under arrest, the police officer said no, I asked if I was free to go, and the the police officer said no, and then I said then put me in hand cuffs and continue my stroll to somewhere where I could call a taxi. Eventually, the escort said that he could take me home, so he took me home.
The next day, I get a call from the doctor I spoke with after being discharged from the psych ward back in November of 2020; I wrote about this doctor and even included a voice recording of our meeting. I listened to his voice message and he said something about meeting to address some concerns. I was already cleared by the ER psych doctors, so I was sure this was an effort to further harass, but I wasn’t too sure. I didn’t reply because by the time I listened to the voice message, it was after business hours.
The next day, I was pulled aside by one of the people who took me to this second MHE in bad faith, and I was told that I had a meeting with my doctor and that someone will take me to the doctor in a couple of hours. By the way, I already denied treatment, as it is my right to do so, and since I’m perfectly healthy, there is no medical issues, I should have never been deceitfully taken to the ER and referred for a MHE in bad faith, the first time. So, why this doctor was reaching out to me, I wasn’t sure, I was confused, it really didn’t make sense, especially since I was cleared by the ER a couple of days before, and I had already denied treatment as I’m perfectly healthy. I didn’t have time to think this through, like I mentioned, I was confused and I didn’t want to be too uncooperative; I wanted to be respectful and cooperative. So I agreed to go see this doctor. The last time I met with this doctor, like I wrote before, I’m sure my meeting was broadcasted, or at least recorded and made available for people to listen to; it wasn’t confidential. I was expecting the same thing this time again.
There were two people who escorted me to the hospital; I called them my entourage. Anyway, they were talking on the way to the hospital, saying things under their breaths to verbally harass. As a matter of fact, when I was on my way to meet these escorts, I heard several different people say “depressed” as if they wanted me to be depressed, or act depressed, when I met with this doctor. So again, I was convinced this wasn’t an effort to help me, but an effort to hurt me; a continued effort to harass, retaliation for filing a complaint on hazing, and the hazing continued, and I’d say this doctor partook, unfortunately, and hopefully reluctantly, to coddle; but like I said, I don’t partake in these “games.” Anyway, without getting into too much detail, I met with the doctor, I’m sure my meeting with the doctor was broadcasted. I guess the purpose of the meeting was to address concerns, which didn’t make any sense to me. It’s like these people are trying to cause me to have an emotional melt down or something, which is not going to happen (by the way, the day after writing this sentence, someone acted out an emotional melt down… it was hilarious, only because I knew it was fake and in response to this sentence… cyberstalkers…). Anyway, I talked about the harassment that led up to the complaint that lead up to a second MHE in bad faith. This doctor then tells me about this “job opportunity.” He tells me about this program, very very briefly, but it sounds like a bunch of malarky. He wanted to reschedule an appointment, and I said I didn’t want to be too resistant, as I did want to resolve the problem, and I would agree to the appointment, and then think about it, and then cancel later if I changed my mind. He presented this program as a job opportunity, but after telling me the what the acronym stood for, it sounded like I would be a patient, and I didn’t like that, because, I’m healthy. I forget exactly what he asked, or why I said this, but I said I wanted to be free. Coincidently, I later watched a YouTube video on the Fox News channel and this guy says something about “you either want to be free, or you want free stuff, and there’s really no other choice.” Click here for that video.
So after thinking this over, I decided to cancel the appointment. First of all, I don’t trust anybody, and I don’t think anybody was being sincere with me. The behavior of others doesn’t demonstrate to me sincere intentions. Second, the MHE was referred in bad faith. Third, after realizing that my supervisors were going out of their way to schedule medical appointments for me with a doctor at the hospital without my consent, I realized that’s a violation of my right to privacy. The are no concerns, and I’m healthy, and that’s that.
As far as the complaint, I met with the people in charge of handling complaints. They asked me how I wanted to handle the situation with the options available to me. Since the complaint is documented, and I was moved to a different department, all I can say is thanks for handling the hostile work environment and allowing me to voice my complaint. I also met with my supervisors and a resolution was made on protocols to follow moving forward.
As far as being referred for a MHE in bad faith, like I told the doctor, it was basically for the “children of all ages.” With that said, you can only coddle to a certain point, but after that point, people need to grow up, because I have rights. I’m a free person. All I really have are my rights. I don’t have solid support; I have relatives, but I don’t have a family, and I can’t expect that of anyone. My family is instigating this culture of control, stalking, and harassment. I was falsely imprisoned the last time I was referred for a MHE in bad faith, and I was referred for a MHE in bad faith, again, demonstrating the continuation of this culture of control, stalking, and harassment.
Anyway, so the complaint has been documented and resolved, and I’m happy I don’t have to spend anymore of my time on it.
With that said, I mentioned in my statement the third party harassment by my family and friends afar, the cyberstalking, and the cameras in my room; all of which were not talked about or even mentioned once, which I think is very telling. This is a good way to transition to the next topic.
Police Report
So as far as my rights go, here’s a quick story, which will lead to a long story to be told in future blogs. So I’ve already mentioned on the vlog that there are cameras in my living space and I’m being actively watch; in my room, the common area, including the bathroom. What I have yet to mention is that there are these YouTubers who broadcast themselves watching me and verbally harassing me. So, almost every morning, as well as other times of the day, my roommate blasts a YouTube show on his speakers. As I’m writing this, I just heard one of these YouTubers say “that hurts” and another one say “he’s going to break;” it’s Wednesday morning, I started writing this blog post on Sunday. With that said, this demonstrates that these YouTubers are not only watching me via cameras in the room, but also cyberstalking my devices, as they can clearly see what I’m typing. I have several voice recordings I’ve gathered and will post them to the blog soon. When I verbally defend myself, talking to these people watching me via the cameras in the room, hearing what they are saying via my roommates speakers, one of the things I say is, these people need to rename their YouTube channel “The Peeping Toms.”
Anyway, so after filing this complaint, this last Saturday as I was preparing my breakfast and my roommate says aloud “I’ll shoot you.” This roommate says many things, but that really annoyed me, so I told him, indirectly, since I was in the kitchen and he was in his room, that I was going to report this threat to the police. In addition, I might as well report that there are cameras in the room, and I’m being watched by my roommate and these YouTubers; and it’s more that just one YouTube show. I’m also being watched by coworkers; like they see me get naked and everything, as I have probably already written before.
Anyway, another thing that happens with this harassment culture is that I’m stalked and harassed when I go to the store. Recently these harassers caught another “pedophile” wave, so they’ve been riding that wave lately; this is immediately after I said something that offended my stalkers, and I said this when I was alone in the apartment while my roommate wasn’t there; so it’s obvious there are cameras and microphones in the apartment. So with this threat, this stalking, this harassment, this complaint, this MHE in bad faith, I wanted to report what I could to the police, who actually already know what’s going on by the way.
So Sunday, I walk to the police station and ask if I could file a police report. They say sure, and proceed with standard procedures. Then one of the main police there asks me about what I’m reporting. He then asks me if I had proof. I said yeah, but even if I didn’t have proof, I could still file a police report. He tells me to show him the proof I had. I told him I had voice recordings, but that I wanted to comb through the recordings to present them without have to spend several minutes finding something within the recordings that would be proof. He then tells me if I didn’t play the voice recordings, that he was going to have to show me the door. I said I had the right to file a police report. He then reiterated that if I didn’t show him the voice recording, that he was going to show me the door. So I left. My right to file a police report regarding threats and other illegal behavior wasn’t respected (I think I saw this police officer on my way to work today… probably because of this sentence… cyberstalkers).
By no surprise, the illegal behavior continues; like these people have absolutely no respect for the law. So I’ve been making better voice recordings, and at this police station, they actually allow you to write a statement, so when I have voice recordings to present and a written statement, I will file this police report.