Vlog #32, cont.
“Devastating” News
To preface this blog, given the gaslighting nature of the cyberstalking culture, many of these observations are based on suspicions, so there is a chance the conclusions based on these observations are not accurate… Leading up to Vlog #32, there were efforts to hurt my feelings with “devastating” news. The “devastating” news is, there were more people involved in the planning of this attack who I didn’t mention when I was reading off all who were involved during a vlog, even taking a moment to look at the screen to see if there was someone who I didn’t mention. If you watch the news, you might have seen recent allusions to that vlog, or at least that’s what it appears to me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Anyway, so a couple of weeks ago, I reached out to a couple of people for letters of recommendation. One of whom is an old college friend who I will refer to as my “math college friend,” since I met him in our math courses. I had known long ago that the cyberstalking culture reached out to recruit him to partake in the cyberstalking culture. The cyberstalking culture, in the early phases of the cyberstalking, reached out to a lot of people I met in college. This was part of the cyberstalking culture’s efforts to turn everyone against me. After the night the cyberstalking culture had my cousin attack me, it took me sometime to realize all who were involved, to whatever degree, with some contribution, some of whom might be this math college friend and other people I met in college, which appears to be the “devastating” news the cyberstalking culture was trying to hurt me with leading up to Vlog #32. I think it was after I sent a tweet with the photo of the CT scan showing the broken tooth that resulted from the attack is when this math college friend started to channel positivity to me via the cyberstalking network. He told the cyberstalking network that I set the curve for a math test… which isn’t actually 100% accurate, I did get a very high score, almost perfect, I missed one point, but there was actually someone who actually got a perfect score; this person who got the perfect score might have had the test from a previous year, I believe this might have been recently hinted to me in response to the draft of this blog, via third party, on behalf of this math college friend… I wasn’t going to mention that last part, but to provide some insight to my observations, I figure I might as well note it for me, and everyone else who follow this blog. I sensed this math college friend might have felt remorseful, and I’m writing this blog to tell a story to explain why I think he has the wisdom to be remorseful, and because there is a lot of information in this story that will help tell the history of the child abuse and the cyberstalking.
Recent Reconnect
So, it had been a while since I received any kind of channeling of messages from this math college friend. I recently reached out to him. I hadn’t spoken with him in many years. Honestly, I was happy to reconnect with him. I met this guy in my freshman year of college, and spent a lot of time with him throughout our college years; he was my friend. Upon reconnecting with him, I felt a sense of maturity, and even though he might have partaken in the cyberstalking culture, because of that maturity, I started to reminisce about good times in college. It was part of the reason I was laughing a lot. Since the cyberstalking culture is evil, controlling, and oppressive, there were efforts to rob me of happiness and ruin that experience for me. So I believe the cyberstalking culture pressured this math college friend to channel negativity and turn on me to hurt my feelings. I’m convinced that if the cyberstalking culture had not interfered, the recent reconnection with this friend would have remained a positive one. What initially seemed like a healthy reconnect was corrupted by the cyberstalking culture. Why? I’m not sure, all I can say is this cyberstalking is evil.
So this math college friend agrees to writing a letter of recommendation for me, which I appreciated, and upon agreeing, he asks me if I had a “prompt” to send him and that he’d get to it later since he was very busy, even mentioning that he was eating lunch late. So with him saying that, I believe he might have been saying several things. First, I believe he was conveying how he contributed to the night my cousin attacked me, since I had referenced the word processor on my computer screen as if it was a teleprompter… but I could be mistaken. Second, I believe he might have even been making fun of himself, because in college, he told me about one of his presentations where he was so nervous, he could barely speak, and we were laughing hysterically about it… but I could be mistaken. Third, I believe he was telling me that I endured child abuse, and that he was actually aware of it, as everyone else was when I was in college, because as I mentioned in an earlier blog, I used to fast in college and I guess people saw that as abuse… but I could be mistaken. Anyway, so I sent him the prompt, or template, or whatever it’s called, and it didn’t take long for the cyberstalking culture to get this friend to turn on me by channeling some negativity, to hurt my feelings. Why? I really don’t know. The cyberstalking culture is evil and senseless. He could deny the requests of the evil cyberstalking culture because the behavior is wrong, and the cyberstalking culture has already caused me enough harm, being physically attacked and falsely imprisoned for example, however, he’s pressured into contributing to the harassment.
So this math college friend sends me this letter of recommendation, and to be honest, I haven’t read it. I’m kind of nervous to because, I don’t know if it’s going to be good or bad because the cyberstalking culture has now corrupted the healthy reconnect. So I appreciate his efforts, I hope the letter of recommendation is good, but unfortunately, leading up to Vlog #32, the cyberstalking culture pressured him to channel some negativity towards me to hurt my feelings. So overall, this is not devastating news, it’s old news, and it’s terrible that the cyberstalking culture wants to cause harm. Given the recent negativity and interference, I think it’s only fair for me to write the following story, to the benefit of everyone, as it’s enlightening, which is evident by the recent feedback I’ve been receiving from the draft of this blog.
“You guys need to talk…”
So the reason I believe this math college friend would have the wisdom to be remorseful is because I already know of a positive influence he has who already disapproved some of his behavior. This person who disapproved his behavior is, let’s say, comes from a higher socio-economic level than this math college friend and I. His parents both have graduate degrees, and I know this because he told me his parents met in grad school. People of higher socio-economic levels, generally speaking, tend to know how to handle their negative emotions better than those of lower socio-economic level, generally speaking.
So this story involves me meeting up with the math college friend and this person, his friend, who was also of the same graduating class, and I’ll refer to him as the “computer science guy” since he graduated with a degree in computer science, and then went on to get a masters degree in computer science. This meet up was intended to bully me, as I’ll explain. I don’t think the cyberstalking culture was involved in or knew of this meet up.
So it was 2013, and I had an internship and was studying computer science. I’m not exactly sure why this math college friend had what appeared to be some kind of resent me towards me, it wasn’t evident to me until this meet up. So one day this math college friend asked me if I wanted to meet up because he was going to visit the campus. He lived far away, and I live closed to the school. Specifically, he invited me to go eat at a restaurant we frequented during college. He told me that someone was going to join us. He told me I might know who this guy was. I might have seen him around, but not enough to vividly recall who this computer science guy was. Anyway, so the plan was, since I had a vehicle because I lived in the area, that I was going to pick up this math college friend and this computer science guy, and then we’d make our way to the restaurant. So I drive to the campus and park. He tells me to meet at a small restaurant called Top Dog. So I go to Top Dog, and I’m waiting there for a couple of minutes, but they never showed up. I was confused and wondered where they were. Eventually, he tells me to meet them at the gym because they were leaving the subway station. So I walk to the gym and waited there for several minutes, but they never showed up. I can’t vividly recall what happened after that. If I’m recalling correctly, I think he then told me to pick them up at the subway station, but not the subway station close to the campus, but the next one over, called “Ashby.” It was confusing, and it seemed to be an effort to bully, but I wasn’t sure because it’s possible they could’ve been running late and didn’t have cellular reception. I picked them up and I seriously can’t remember much, there are only a couple of things that I can recall vividly and generally. Anyway, so I’d imagine there was a bit of tension or something, I’m not sure. During that time, I was quite outgoing and very talkative, so if there was tension, it wasn’t for very long, and, I actually remember having a good time.
So, eventually I learn that the computer science guy graduated with a degree in computer science and went on to get his masters in computer science. Which is cool, right? Why wouldn’t I want to meet someone who studied what I was currently studying and then went on to graduate school. I asked him about graduate school, and other stuff. The meet up could have been with good intentions on behalf of this math college friend to introduce me to someone more established in the field. However, I believe the intention was to make me feel bad, as if to compare me with someone who was better than me at something would make me feel bad, but I don’t think like that. I want to be around people who are more advanced than me and who will push me to do better, so I was happy to meet this computer science guy, and I wasn’t envious of him. So eventually, it finally occurred to me that this math college friend told this computer science guy to meet up with me solely to bully me. However, I think it was to the extent that he told this computer science guy to fly from the east coast to the west coast, solely to bully me. I could be wrong, it’s just a guess, and I actually think it’s kind of funny because I recall being surprised at how much money he spent on travel just for a weekend or so. If I’m recalling correctly, I think this computer science guy even mentioned how this math college friend had to only fly a short distance.
Anyway, so it was somewhat evident that this math college friend had some kind of resentment that I wasn’t aware of until the meet up. It was as if this math college friend was taking his resentment, or whatever negative emotion, too far, and this computer science guy was making that observation. I recall I lightly teased this computer science guy, and he replied with an obvious excessive passive aggressive response, and I think he was poking at the fact that my mother was an alcoholic. It kind of stung, and it caught me by surprise, but I shrugged it off. It appeared to me that this computer science guy only knew of me by how this math college friend was describing me, probably portraying me as arrogant, which I’m not, and hostile, which I’m not. I figured once he got to know me, he probably realized that this math college friend was probably being unnecessarily resentful, or something, and that I was actually a positive person. I think this math college friend might have realized he might have been overreacting and in the wrong. Anyway, despite the moments of negativity, or whatever, I had a good time, mostly because I’m aware people have feelings, and people who achieve their goals don’t let negativity get in the way of them behaving civilly and fairly.
So the night the cyberstalking culture had my cousin attack me is very reminiscent of this meet up, simply by the way locations were used to symbolize messages. I was told to meet at Top Dog to implicitly negate my achievements, success, or efforts. I was told to meet at the gym because the gym symbolized a mutual friend of mine and this math college friend. I probably spent more time with this mutual friend than with this math college friend, simply because our major was the same, and because we’d workout at that gym, when I’d show up. This mutual friend gained a lot of muscle in college. This mutual friend was also a much better student than me, and I think he actually got his PhD. I was told to meet at the “Ashby” station, probably to allude to The Holocaust. I was then introduced to someone who not only achieved a bachelor’s degree in computer science, but a master’s degree as well. This is the reason I believe this math college friend might have been involved.
So back describing the meet up… after eating, I drop this math college friend and the computer science guy off at the subway station. Like I said, I had a good time. It was cool seeing this math college friend and meeting this computer science guy. So, they both exit my vehicle. After saying bye, and just before closing the doors to my vehicle, the computer science guy suddenly tells this math college friend “you guys need to talk.” Upon saying that, this math college friend’s eyes open super wide, as if this computer science guy was putting him on the spot for being mean; which I thought wasn’t necessary because the meet up was ending on a good note, but I figured since this computer science guy got to know me, he was trying to disapprove of the bullying I endured during the meet up, and was trying to tell us to get along. However, I later realized that even though this computer science guy got to know me, he definitely already knew of me and my story, which is evidenced by his statement.
So why would this computer science guy actually say “you guys need to talk” before closing the doors to my vehicle? Well, first of all, the computer science guy making this statement and this math college friend’s reaction to it, tells me a lot because they weren’t even present when this statement was originally said. This tells me that everyone in college knew who I was, about me, and I had absolutely no clue. This statement was originally said by a professor of mine on the day of my graduation. The department I graduated from was having a post graduation gathering. I went with my family to the gathering to take a couple of photos with a couple of my professors. I wish I took a photo with at least one other professor because he strongly advocated for me, but I was clueless and had no idea he was implicitly saying anything to the class. Anyway, so this professor I took a photo with is originally from a country in Latin America. So after taking a photo, he spoke with my parents, in Spanish. At that time, I would just tune out whenever I heard Spanish, and I was no longer in the circle of conversation and probably started looking around. After briefly speaking with my parents, he brought me and my father together and says, “you guys need to talk,” and then abruptly walked away. I don’t think I even said “bye” or “thanks.” I was confused and didn’t know what he meant, and I recall my father kind of just oddly turning around and started walking away. I didn’t know what to think of the statement or the interaction; I concluded it was something profound, and abstract. Eventually I realized this professor was talking about the child abuse. It was one of the many mind blowing realizations. I realized that everyone, professors and other students, or America and the world in general, knew of the child abuse and the reasons for and the intentions of the child abuse. It took me years to realize. I wrote to this math college friend recently that, there were people at that university who were good to me. So what I see now is, the computer science guy was trying to tell me and this math college friend that, I’m a victim, and I was clueless in college, and was clueless still at that time, when the cyberstalking culture was starting to gain momentum.
So this is why I believe this math college friend is remorseful and has the wisdom to be because of his influences. This is probably why he told me he was very busy and was eating lunch late. So I know there’s a tendency for this math college friend to be genuine, but he’s being pressured by the cyberstalkering culture to channel negativity.