D Talks #79

3-24-22

Workplace Harassment

This is a follow up to the blog regarding the recent workplace harassment. So I filed the complaint. It’s my fifth complaint. Since it’s my fifth complaint, I’ll review all five complaints:

• Complaint #1
  • Date: May 28th, 2021
    • Was violently yelled at, more than once on the same day. Hostile work environment. Wrote a complaint which led to the second mental health evaluation in bad faith. Was moved away from that building, mostly because there was a girl making it obvious she was interested in me.
• Complaint #2
  • Date: August 4th, 2021
    • Was pouring rain. Request to be excused from morning meeting was denied; sent someone to pick me up. Was written up for not showing up on time and was told that I have a rain coat which would allow me to walk in the rain. However, it was pouring rain. Not only was I written up, but then assigned a punishment. Wrote a complaint and wasn’t required to do assigned punishment.
• Complaint #3
  • Date: November 29, 2021
    • Was being threatened during an assignment. Wrote complaint. Was moved away from assignment.
• Complaint #4
  • Date: January 25, 2022
    • Tampering of bike and vehicle. Building security told me the surveillance cameras weren’t working. Wrote complaint.
• Complaint #5
  • Date: March 3, 2022
    • Verbal harassment, hourly meetings, invasion of personal space. Planned by supervisors to sabotage performance. Retaliation.

To review, the fifth complaint was regarding supervisors fostering a hostile work environment and targeted bullying. I endure verbal harassment at the daily meetings, not to mention the ongoing cyberstalking. In order to interfere with my fitness and study efforts, supervisors required hourly meetings. The hourly meetings continued for an excessive and unnecessary amount of time. I started to not attend all of the hourly meetings because of harassment and was written up. I started to attend the hourly meetings and my personal space was invaded. I immediately notified a supervisor about the conflict. The conflict wasn’t mediate appropriately, and I concluded the incident was a collective effort planned by supervisors. The day after the incident, peers and supervisors were indirectly telling me not to say anything. Also, the supervisor who seemed to have planned the harassment incident made an intentional high pitched voice as if to tease at their supposed effective effort to intimidate me. I was still not sure whether to write or report this harassment, but after behaviors during the day following the incident, a decision was easily made. I sent a message to the person in charge of dealing with harassment complaints.

Since this isn’t the first time I’ve filed a harassment complaint, I now have a protocol I follow. I notify the person in charge of dealing with harassment complaints. The next step is to write a statement, and I usually give myself a week to submit the statement. I notified this person on a Friday.

I expected there to be some kind of reactions and retaliations the following week; I was actually getting reactions from people as I was sending my notification text message to the person in charge of dealing with complaints. I was going to still attend all of the hourly meetings, even though it made absolutely no sense, especially since it was going into the third week of hourly meetings. I showed up the Monday following that Friday, and there was no morning meeting. Few people showed up. There was no announcement or notification. Supervisors and peers were playing games in retaliation to my text message to the person in charge of dealing with complaints. I figured it would be best for me to keep my distance until the complaint was resolved, since the retaliation would most likely continue. So I returned to a meeting protocol I was following during the month of January where I would sign out. I want to be fair. I don’t want to be, or appear to be, insubordinate, but at the same time, I also wanted to avoid the current abusive authority and environment. So I figured I’d sign out twice a day, since there are usually two to three meetings a day. That Monday, I showed up and signed out twice. On Tuesday, I showed up, signed out, went to the gym, and then went to my assigned housing to eat lunch; my assigned housing is very close to work. As I was preparing my lunch, I hear knocks on the door, and the door opens. People from the housing management office let a couple of helpers from the department I’m assigned to into my assigned housing; this isn’t the first time people from my department have made spontaneous visits to my assigned housing.

[There seems to be this misconception where people with some authority think they can make random spontaneous visits to someone’s assigned housing. I think they might have some authority to do room inspections, that of which I’m not too sure of, and doesn’t make sense to me; I was probably told this because there are cameras in my living space and I’m being actively watched. What is the purpose of a room inspection? To ensure upkeep of the housing, and it makes sense that the housing management has the authority to conduct room inspections, but not the department I’m assigned to. However, some people abuse their power and take things out of context, possibly even unknowingly. They’ll use room inspections as a form of punishment, or to impose their power. I think, after this incident of spontaneous visits, people are starting realize they are obviously crossing boundaries they shouldn’t be and their guise is no longer protecting their bad intentions. As someone who is being cyberstalked, those who partake in the cyberstalking are already crossing boundaries they shouldn’t be, so they become blinded to what their boundaries are. Last thing I’ll mention is, even though people are starting to realize their boundaries, today, a couple of people from building management entered my assigned room to see if there were any necessary repairs. Are they crossing any boundaries? Well, they do have the authority to check to see if there are any necessary repairs, however, it’s now just being used as a guise to harass and invade my space; they are trying to harass without stepping out of their guise. These people knocked, and they are supposed to announce who they are before entering, but didn’t. What’s more, like I wrote in a blog very recently, they already checked if there were any necessary repairs just a couple of weeks ago, making this recent inspection for repairs uncalled for. They asked me if there were any necessary repairs, and I told them about the microwave, that of which they already know of because I filled out a trouble ticket just a couple of days ago. I believe they wanted to bring up the microwave because it’s an allusion to my cousin, that of which I’ve already written about. Then they asked if there were any broken lights in my room, and I told them no. There are a couple of allusions with lights that I can think of, one is Tesla, which I’ll write about eventually. Either way, that inspection was obviously unnecessary and a guise to harass, and even though they aren’t stepping outside of their guise, they already checked for repairs very recently, which makes the harassment still obvious.]

So these two helpers enter my assigned room and have fake looks of worry, as if they were seriously concerned about me. I told them that I was trying to keep my distance until my complaint was resolved and until then I was going to sign out twice a day at specific times. They cyberstalk, stalk, and follow me everywhere, so they already know I was at the building, and if they were really concerned about where I was, they should have checked the sign out book, as that has been my go-to for some time now. They told me they didn’t check the sign out book. They might have told me they called me, I can’t recall. However, I did actually receive a call and a voice message about half an hour before they entered my room. I was in the middle of preparing lunch. Their concern of my whereabouts were seriously exaggerated, and they were simply looking for reasons to invade my space to continue their harassment. After that clarification, they insisted that I go with them to the building. I asked why, and told them I’d be there at a certain time. They were persistent, but eventually left. After eating, I sent an email to the person who wanted to speak with me. I wanted to limit our communication to written form because I wanted to avoid problems. I was anticipating problems, bullying, harassment, controlling efforts, and unreasonableness; an insincerity very similar to the interaction with the two helpers who entered my room. I didn’t receive a reply. The department knows I signed out, and they are aware that I was sending an email to the person who wanted to speak with me. About an hour later, someone knocks on my room door and it sounded like building management. I was in my bedroom with the bedroom door propped slightly open. I figured it was supervisors from my department. They knocked to let me know they were entering the room, so they eventually entered the room. I looked through the propped open bedroom door and I see and hear two supervisors from my department. Do they have the authority to make a spontaneous visit and enter my assigned housing at their will? No. They didn’t even think of waiting at the door for me to answer, and it gets worse. So I speak with them at the bedroom door and have the same conversation with them as with the helpers: I signed out, I’m in the middle of filing a complaint against them, I’ll be there to sign out again at a certain time. They insisted that I go with them. Then one of the supervisors asks if he could record and starts recording with his cell phone. Why on earth did this supervisor want to start recording? It was to harass me. The unreasonable conversation and harassment continued, so I stated that I’d be at the building at a certain time to sign out and I politely closed my bedroom door and returned to my desk and computer where I was studying for a job related exam; I was working. Seconds pass and they have building management open my bedroom door and entered my bedroom! Why!? They have no concerns for my health or well being, and even if they did, they can’t just enter my bedroom at their will. They wanted to bully me. Impose unwarranted power; power they think they have, but don’t. They wanted to make me leave with them. I was not going to leave with them. I stayed polite and respectful. By the way, do you think these people would act this way if I wasn’t being cyberstalking and if they didn’t have my family telling them to harass me on their behalf? I don’t think so. Anyway, so they enter my bedroom and the unreasonable conversation continues. They asked me questions I already answered and were being difficult. They are supervisors, and this is a military setting, and there are traditional customs, but there’s a lot of confusion and conflation. One of the supervisors tells me he was “ordering” me to go with them. I think there is a lot of confusion on what “orders” are. Being in a position of authority doesn’t mean you can order people around out of spite. I’ve given this idea of “orders” some thought already because when I was sent for a second mental health evaluation, a highly ranked supervisor told me he was ordering me to get in the vehicle to be taken to the hospital and if I didn’t listen that he was going to have me arrested. That didn’t make sense to me, and I didn’t have the knowledge to reason against it, so I told him I was taking his word for it. In hindsight, I see that this person didn’t have the authority to threaten me with arrest by leveraging a supposed order. I wonder if I refused to cooperate if I really would have been arrested… Anyway, so this supervisor asks me if I know what would happen if I disobeyed an order, or something, and also asked me if I thought I was disobeying an order. I told him no, and I that I have my reasoning. So he eventually asks me if I was going to be there at the time I said I was, and I respectfully said yes. Then both supervisors leave, without me. So again, their spontaneous visit and entry to my assigned housing was unauthorized and unjustified; it was an effort to harass by invading my space.

Just to be clear, I don’t want problems with anybody, I want to get along with everybody, even my friends and family back home, but this cyberstalking has totally messed that up. How can I expect people to be fair with me if they are given the ability to cyberstalk me? My family can easily corrupt people and turn them against me simply by giving them the ability to cyberstalk me. In order for people around me to start to be fair with me, they’d need to start refusing to partake in the oppression.

So I go to the building to sign out for a second time. As I’m walking out of the building, one of the supervisors asks me where I was going. I told him I signed in. He told me I had to stay there for the meeting. I told him I signed in. He then tells me that I have to say “right here!” with subtle aggression. I was offended. I know he’s getting that from my father; my father is telling him to speak to me that way. My father doesn’t even speak to me like that; probably when I was younger, but nowadays, he wouldn’t dare. I said “no” and walked away.

So that routine continued for a couple of weeks. I tried to kept my distance, whenever supervisors found an opportunity to bully, they would. A couple of people shouted at me telling me not to leave, telling me I’m not authorized to leave, a couple of times. I also received an unreasonable threat-like text message, threatening of unrealistic consequences; I was told that if I didn’t show up at a certain time that I wouldn’t be allowed to sign my evaluation and that I wouldn’t be allowed to take my exam. This is an example of a power trip. So I show up to sign my evaluation, and it was simply an opportunity to bully. I was asked why I didn’t show up the day before, even though they already knew why; I was excused. I don’t want to explain the whole conversation. It was an unreasonable conversation with people being difficult, to harass me. I limited my responses, staying quiet at times, and eventually I said that I refused to partake in an unreasonable conversation, and if they wanted to speak with me, to do so in writing. The reason I prefer having a written conversation with unreasonable people is because I don’t have to tell them they are being unreasonable. Their written text will demonstrate to them how they are being unreasonable. Unreasonable people don’t care about being correct, logical, or sensible; they care about winning an emotional battle. In my case, they’ll use the child abuse to make me feel bad, but I stay emotionally stable and logical. I repeatedly refused to partake in the unreasonable conversation, as there was no reason for it. Hypothetically speaking, I could have signed my evaluation having exchange absolutely no words. So this supervisor gets upset and tells me I can’t sign my evaluation. I could have argued that he has to right to tell me I can’t sign my evaluation, but I just left, because if I had anything to say, I was going to do so in writing. Long story short, they gave me the run around, but I was eventually called back to the office to sign the evaluation with the same supervisor who told me I couldn’t sign the evaluation earlier; sounds like power tripping to me. And I’ll repeat myself: I really do just want to get along with people.

Anyway, so during this time that I was keeping my distance, there were some other harassments that are not worth mentioning. I sent the complaint. It took a while for the person who handles harassment complaints to contact me, but I was focused on studying for the exam, so I figured I’d just follow up after the exam if I hadn’t received a response. The day after the exam, I spoke with the person in charge of dealing with complaints on the phone. This person was kind of giving me a hard time, and I could have just gave up and let things go, but given the situation that I’m in, I must see things through because as long as this cyberstalking continues, the harassment is going to continue, and I need to do what I can to set boundaries, and address the cyberstalking. This person told me they would schedule a meeting with a supervisor higher up and one of the supervisors in question, as the other supervisor was no longer in the department. I’m not sure if this supervisor was moved because of this situation, but I wouldn’t be surprised because I think I actually have a technically legal discrimination case.

During this meeting, I planned on being more upfront with the cyberstalking. I usually don’t talk about the cyberstalking, but I have enough to demonstrate the cyberstalking is occurring and speak about it with certainty. I also wanted to be more upfront with saying that the people around me are speaking with my family. Will these people admit to the cyberstalking? Not directly, however, it was implied, which I appreciate, so I’ll take that. Will these people admit that they are speaking with my family? No, but definite answers were avoided, and that’s all that I was really hoping for, for now. Then the more obvious stuff was addressed, like the harassment of spontaneous visits, ordering around out of spite, hourly meetings, etc.

So now I’m attending the meetings. There are no more hourly meetings. Why? I can’t be too sure, but it could be due to my complaint and because it was an effort to harass me. There are also far less people than there were. Why? I can’t be too sure, again, but it could also be due to my complaint and because it was an effort to harass me. This further convinces me, as I wrote before, people were just going to these meeting to harass me, but I could still be wrong. Things do seem more tolerable and less severe than they were, but it’s only been a couple of days… by the way, there has already been a small power trip out of spite… a couple of small power trips out of spite… the first seemed to be just retaliation to my complaint, the second seemed to be retaliation to this blog draft, and both seemed to be efforts to harass me.

I don’t want to sound so negative, because I actually do want things to get better. I’d say, in general, people have good times and bad times. For me, being cyberstalked by the people around me, I’d say I have neutral times and bad times. I’d say I’m a happy person who has to deal with not-so-bad situations and bad situations, and again, it’s because of the cyberstalking. At this point, if I was working for any other employer, I would have been fired already, because that’s the pattern of behavior of the cyberstalking culture. It’s usually: I’m hired by an abusive employer who has intentions to exploit, they try to make me quit, and when I don’t quit, they fire me for whatever reason. But now I’m in the military, and nobody can really fire me; I’d pretty much have to fire myself. So even though there is an effort to make me quit and leave, which is now blatantly obvious as I’ll see allusions to this on TV broadcasts and on the Internet, there is no reason for me to be fired. This counters the efforts of the cyberstalking culture. Since I can’t be fired so easily, the intensity of the efforts to make me quit and leave vary.

So in summary, what I’ve covered so far is, reviewing the complaints, then reviewing the fifth complaint, then reviewed the retaliation, and the resolution. Is this complaint 100% resolved? Not quite, because while I was waiting for the complaint of workplace bullying to be resolved, I realized the incident that started the complaint, when someone invaded my personal space, was an act of illegal discriminatory harassment, and I’ll write about that. Then I’ll deviate from the harassment complaint and write about two topics. The first is, why I’m hopeful. The second is, what drives the effort to make me quit and leave. The central issue to both of these topics, and even the illegal act of discrimination, is the cyberstalking.

Illegal Discriminatory Harassment

It took me a while to realize that I’d experience discrimination most of my life. The child abuse was an act of discrimination. When my family was given the cyberstalking abilities, this discrimination became apparent to me, however, I didn’t understand to what degree. Initially I thought it was a general kind of resentment. The realization was shocking as I was oblivious; I thought my family loved me for my differences. Eventually I realized the child abuse wasn’t a bad joke or prank; the intent was to cause me serious harm. However, despite the child abuse, I prevailed. Then the cyberstalking started, and the evil intentions to cause serious harm revived. It was devastating to realize that the degree of discrimination was at a level that was evil; to the point where I was being physically attacked and the desire for my death was being expressed. The intensity of the discriminatory efforts varied, as hate can be exhausting.

As I’ve written before, I look like my mother: lighter skin complexion and greenish eyes. Somehow, I think my family, and others, believe that my eye color and skin color give me some kind of confidence, or something. To be honest, I thought I was ugly. I learned to like myself. People would complement my eye color, and to be honest, sometimes I forget I have a greenish eye color. I don’t see me. Other’s see me. Someone told me I was blessed, and I told them I was cursed. If I looked more like my father, I probably wouldn’t have been abused and endure cyberstalking, and I probably would have a much better life now.

So how does this relate to the harassment incident planned by supervisors? So there’s an effort to sabotage my performance, which has persisted since the cyberstalking started, but there’s an additional and deeper reason that I’ll address soon. Since supervisors, and one supervisor in particular, seem to be in communication with my father, specifically, this supervisor got information from my father to aid in the effort to sabotage my performance. One way they can sabotage my performance is to make me feel inferior and rid me of confidence. They believe my eye color and light skin complexion give me some kind of confidence. They believe I’m insecure about my height. They believe I’m insecure about the child abuse. So what supervisors planned, with the help of my father, the main cyberstalker and child abuser, is to have people who weren’t just light complexion, but Caucasian, with green eyes, who were taller than me, harass me and allude to the child abuse. I believe that’s illegal discriminatory harassment. It’s similar discrimination that drove the child abuse. The goal was to intimidate me, rid me of confidence, and make me feel inferior. That effort to make me feel inferior to Caucasians continues. These people act like they are joking around and playing, but you don’t joke around or play like that. The joking around is a guise to be racist.

So for these reason, I’m writing a second statement regarding illegal discriminatory harassment.

Now, were their efforts effective? No. It’s only in hindsight that I see my family, probably mostly my father, helped the supervisor to plan this harassment incident. What they are doing is, they are looking up what bullying, harassment, and illegal discrimination is and they are reverse engineering to affect me.

The clue that convinced me that my family was involved is the planned incident to invade my space is very reminiscent to an incident involving my uncle Noey and I. Again, my uncle Noey is my mom’s brother who essentially committed suicide. For what I know, he had someone shoot him in the head, and now he and my mother are buried in the same burial. The story is, my uncle was so depressed that he wanted to commit suicide. I’m not sure of this. Was he mistreated by his family? I’m not sure, but he might have been, I really don’t know for sure. Again, people say “Noey” and it’s a buzz word for the cyberstalking culture to express their desire for me to be depressed to the point where I’m suicidal. Again, I think suicide is a disservice to humanity. So what’s the incident that was alluded to by the planned harassment? Well, one day my mother’s side of the family planned for all of us cousins to go to a show at a stadium. I was sitting behind my uncle. There wasn’t much foot space, and for some reason, I could not stop bumping my feet against the back of my uncle’s seat; I was getting on my nerves! I think he might have thought this was intentional, but he seemed to have been playing this game where he acted like I was bullying him. I wasn’t. Why would he play this game? Well, so this history of people abuse, abusing people to get a rise, started with my grandpa. My grandma would tell her kids, my father and his siblings, to essentially disrespect my grandpa, to get a rise, essentially. I was oblivious to this. There was one day my father was getting loud with my grandpa; I was probably in my early twenties. He was getting loud enough to the point where I was going to tell him to not get loud with my grandpa. I was staring at my dad, and as I was about to say something, my grandpa waved his hand telling me not to. What’s shocking to me is that everyone, everyone who knows my family, knows this is the way my father was with my grandpa; disrespectful… not all the time, I only clearly observed it with my father once, and I can reflect on times where other aunts and uncles might have been disrespectful. What’s also surprising is my father raised his children to be very respectful to him, which is kind of hypocritical, I guess, not because I wanted to be disrespectful, but mostly because I was unaware of how my father was disrespectful to his father, and that’s pretty much how my father became a people abuser, which led to the child abuse, and is now characteristic of the cyberstalking culture, and I’m now subjected to people abuse. Since my father was never punished for his bad behavior, and has actually been rewarded for his bad behavior, being given the cyberstalking abilities for example, people emulate my father’s behavior. I believe my mother’s side of the family thought people abuse was the formula for success. They saw that I was prevailing, and I believe they thought I was a people abuser, and I’m not. I found my uncle Noey’s reaction strange; there is no way I want my uncle to play the abused. On another thought though, there is one time he was a little rough with me when playing soccer one time. I think it’s common for people to not be sure of how to behave. Some people compromise their values and conform to what they believe is necessary to succeed. I think if American values were rewarded more, and behaviors that go against American values were punished more, things would be more fair and free.

Anyway, the planned harassment incident involved someone putting something down my back, while they were behind me.

So, even if their desired affect of the discriminatory harassment wasn’t effective, why am I spending the time to file the complaint? Because the behavior needs to be condemned. Another reason is I want this to be documented, I want to demonstrate how my family, specifically my father, won’t leave me alone, and encourages and corrupts others to harass me. Another reason, for what I know, workplace bullying isn’t illegal discrimination unless the harassment is because of a protected category. Since this has something to do with a protected category, and since I want to use the law to defend myself against this harassment and cyberstalking, I’m going to see this complaint through and see where it gets me. I might be onto something, or I might not. Either way, it will be documented and I’ll learn something new during the process.

Employment and Cyberstalking At Current place of employment

So even though this cyberstalking has followed me to this current employer, why am I hopeful? Firstly, because it’s the military, and the employment isn’t at-will. As I mentioned already, if this employment was like any of my previous ones, I’d be fired already, for whatever reason. Not only is the military contract employment, the military struggles to recruit people, which is unfortunate, but it reassures me that even though there’s an effort to make me quit and leave on my own, the system is designed to retain people. Secondly, the people I work with all took an oath, which is, essentially, a promise to do good. So even though there are people I work with working against me, because of the cyberstalking, they are currently in the wrong because the cyberstalking is oppressive and not good. With time, I hope there’s a change of heart. I plan to stay in the military for many years.

Like with my other places of employment, the cyberstalking causes problems. The cyberstalking, on it’s own, is bad enough, however, cyberstalkers become so blinded to their boundaries and then get carried away by the cyberstalking culture. Usually, the effort to make me quit employment gets messy, and then I’m simply fired. With my current employment, things have gotten messy. The cyberstalking and the cyberstalking culture followed me to this employment. Eventually I was unknowingly falsely admitted to a psych ward and falsely imprisoned. That was the height of the messiness.

So what’s currently driving the effort to make me quit and leave? Well, first of all, this effort existed since I started. Sabotage is a theme of the cyberstalking culture. There were efforts to make me fail boot camp. The effort to sabotage, or make me quit and leave, is continuous, however, at varying levels and different degrees. The effort reach an all time high when I was falsely imprisoned. The effort reached a level of blatant corruption and to a degree of gross negligence. People, to include my supervisors and medical professionals, falsified claims and legal documents to have me falsely imprisoned. It was an effort to make me quit and leave. At that point, with at-will employment, I would have been fired. However, this is the military, and not only is it contract employment, the standards are much higher, and the requirements to adhere to those standards are much stricter. So what does that mean for the supervisors and medical professionals? Will these people suffer consequences for violating policies and procedures? For the supervisors, probably not. For the medical professionals, I’m not sure, but probably not. However, there’s a fear of unknown consequences if I file an administrative claim for being falsely imprisoned.

What does that mean for me? Well, I can’t be easily fired, so the only way to get rid of me is to have me leave and quit on my own. The cyberstalking will continue, and most people cannot resist giving into and being corrupted by the cyberstalking culture, especially when given the cyberstalking abilities. By the way, I think there’s a cool, mature, fair, peaceful cyberstalking counter culture that’s gaining momentum…

Anyway, so there are bad times, and there are not-so-bad times, and the only reason I can’t say “good” or “neutral” times is because of the cyberstalking. Honestly, when times are not-so-bad, I really question people. Even though they partake in the cyberstalking culture and have cyberstalking abilities, I hope they have a change of heart, and are really on my side; or not “on my side” but just righteous. People will even try to convey to me that they are righteous and them partaking in the mistreatment is a guise. I appreciate the subtle positivity, and I want to believe it’s sincere, so I stay neutral and tolerant to give people a chance. However, there have been many times when there’s a switch up to guise; instead of acting like a cyberstalker because certain people are actually righteous, people are actually acting righteous so that I tolerate the cyberstalking so that they can benefit from the cyberstalking. Those who partake in the cyberstalking have reached out to TV broadcast and Internet entities, all for attention, and it’s apparent. The way they get attention is by turning people against me. That’s the culture; it’s bad, and oppressive. So there’s definitely an internal conflict within these people, mixed feelings, undecided and not sure, and then making compromises.

So at this point, I’ve been tolerant and patient, and I’ve paid the time to figure things out. I don’t know how my behavior will change. I’d probably still be tolerant, but I’d probably be less trusting of the guise, unless I’m really convinced that person is really righteous, by actually helping me, or at least by refraining from harassment. Or, I’d actually probably less tolerant and push back more than I have before. I don’t know, I still need to figure things out… but there definitely needs to be more energy towards making this cyberstalking stop.

Anyway, so I guess one reason I’d be less trusting of the guise is because I’m realizing the effort to make me quit and leave is much more serious than I thought before. I understand the sentiment; people tell me to leave. I understand acts on those sentiments; I’ve needed to file five harassment complaints already. However, the effort to make me quit and leave actually do seem quite serious. The efforts to sabotage my performance on my exam and fitness goals are not simply due to envy, but a serious effort to demonstrate I’m not capable of performing my duties. That serious effort was kind of a devastating realization. Not to mention there has also been an effort to push me into depression, which is also to demonstrate I’m incapable. I believe these serious efforts are because of the fear of the unknown consequences by the supervisors and medical professionals who partook in the false imprisonment.

3-27-22

Cyberstalkers Following Me to Stores

So, it’s rare when I go to stores. The stores, or places that I go, are usually affiliated with the organization I work for, so I don’t really feel like I’m leaving work. These stores are the grocery store and a department like store. Sometimes I go to a different grocery store, and the cyberstalkers follow me there too. Today, I went out and about because I need to get an oil change. I should probably mention that my vehicle seems hacked. I can hear the cyberstalkers, I have conversations with them, and I think they can see me as well, so the vehicle is bugged, essentially. They might also be able to control the vehicle to some extent. The reason I say this is because I was taking some notes for future blogs, and I mentioned oil in the notes, and the next day, the oil warning on my vehicle activated; it could be a coincidence, but I wouldn’t be surprised if it isn’t. I even heard one person allude to this oil warning while I was at the gym.

Anyway, so I’m constantly being watched and tracked. It’s kind of insane. I don’t think I can pay that much attention to someone even if I was paid to. I think it an unhealthy obsession. I anticipated being followed. So my first stop was at the Auto Center at Walmart. I kind of felt like I was being followed. It might have seemed like people in cars and in public knew I was in their presence and were anticipating me. Eventually I make it to the Walmart. I park, and it seemed like people were anticipating my arrival. So I park and I see someone outside of their car, and it just seemed like that person was anticipating me. I walked into the store, and it also seemed like people were anticipating me. So I get in line, and eventually the guy who was outside of his car in the parking lot enters the store and he kind of looks like Gilbert, who I’ve written about already. I forget what else happens, or what else was said, but I recall saying “living the life of the child abused.” I probably should have said something about the cyberstalking too, because it’s the cyberstalking that makes this following of me possible. Eventually, a father and his two children enter the store and after they pass, the guy in front of me says “open.” “Open” is a buzz word that means… I’m not even sure… it means, you’re concealing something, but now you’re not. In this case, this guy was calling me a pedophile, which kinda sucks. I then say, “one day I am, and the another day I’m not…” It’s like, per the cyberstalking culture’s discretion, I’m either a pedophile sometimes, and other times I’m not. It’s dumb. Anyway, so I finally get to speak with the guy at the front desk, and he tells me that they are understaffed and they aren’t doing oil changes any more. I ask how I should go about getting an oil change, and he tells me to try another day. So I leave, and try to decide what I’ll do next.

Before I write about what happens next, let me mention one thing. It seems strange that Walmart is understaffed. I wouldn’t be surprised if I was denied service. I have an inkling that the friend that I reached out to toward the end of 2015 is behind the effort to have Walmart deny me service. I’d say, when the cyberstalking culture and the discrimination intensified, sometime around 2014 when I graduated with my degree in computer science, I was spending time with this friend. I went to a store, and he drove me there. I went into the store, bought something, and returned to the car. He said something like, “ahh, not this guy.” I figured he might have been trying to imply that’s how the people at the store felt about me, which was odd to me, I had never been treated like that before, but I guess the cyberstalking and graduating with this degree in computer science changed all that. It was also somewhat shocking to me that he would stoop that low, and as I mentioned before, I figured people were just venting and eventually people would grow up, but the efforts to harass and turn people against me continues. This friend who made that statement, encouraging that treatment of me back in 2014, most likely encouraged that treatment once again, today, in 2022. There were other times in 2014 where restaurants told me they were closed, when they obviously weren’t, or charged my credit card much more than that of the bill. How that treatment was happening? I had no idea at the time. I was confused. Now, in hindsight, it was the cyberstalkers with their cyberstalking abilities encouraging this mistreatment, which is kind of sick and evil. The treatment didn’t happen all of the time, but enough for me to recall specific instances, and enough for me to say that most places I went to, people either were anticipating me or knew who I was. So why would this friend want to encourage this behavior? He has been a bully through the cyberstalking culture, intermittently, for years. From what I’m gathering, I believe he’s engaging in people abuse to get a rise because he might have gotten divorced recently. I don’t know how I’m gathering this… it’s quite strange the way I am… it’s implicitly through the cyberstalking culture. I learned that this friend married someone I know when I went on Facebook last year… I ended up creating a brand new account to partake in a necessary message group and to avoid that old account. Via the cyberstalking culture, I was receiving messages regarding their marriage. It had been a while since I heard of the marriage or this friend and the person he married. Eventually, I started to be channeled harassment by this friend. I wasn’t sure why, but the things he was harassing me with tells me that he most likely got divorced. I could be wrong.

Anyway, so there’s an O’reilly auto parts store on the way home, so I figured I’d stop by, and see if it’s worth changing the oil myself. The cyberstalkers, specifically, the people who actively monitor my activity know that I was searching the O’reilly website because I saw an oil change kit one time. I didn’t see this kit online. I show up to the store and I’m asked if I needed help. These people already knew who I was, were anticipating me, and even knew what I was looking to purchase. Eventually, there are some allusions to another friend of mine; the high school friend who is or was in the country illegally. The guys at the store, were respectful directly to me, however, were being kind of insincere, and were making some kind of allusions to this other friend and also kind of calling me a pedophile. This other friend calling me a pedophile is his go-to harassment; not so much the friend I mentioned before. Both of these friends by the way were high school friends of mine… which reminds me, the guy who looked like Gilbert also looked like another high school friend of mine when he was in the parking lot, but looked more like Gilbert in the store. Anyway, so eventually, after this person at the store helps me with the kit, he tells me about the oils. He then tells me that I need 5W-20 oil and that it’s in Lane 8 and then has me go search for the oil, and doesn’t help me. I found that odd because why would he help me with the kit and not the oil. Then, I could be over analyzing this, but since numbers are used to harass me, and given the strangeness of the situation, I’ll explain what these numbers mean. 5 means boner and it’s from the 5 second rule from the show Curb Your Enthusiasm; unfortunately, most times, 5 means a pedophile boner… 20 is from 20/20 eye vision, as if to say something is clear and obvious. Then 8 means pedophile, and I won’t describe were it originates. So basically, this guy, with the help of the cyberstalking culture, was saying, I got a boner around kids so I’m a pedophile. Which is not true. I can think of the three instances that the cyberstalkers allude to, and neither time did I get a boner; it’s just haters being haters. This friend, who was or is in the country illegally, orchestrated one of the instances in question and basically told everybody that I was a pedophile because I got a boner around his kids… I’ll talk about this story eventually. So anyway. I go to find the oils, and I find the cheapest one. The brand is Q and it’s a green container. This further alludes to this other friend. Q is from the YG song “Who Do You Love?” Basically it’s a story where one friend backstabs another friend. Q is the friend who was backstabbed. So I guess I’m Q and this other friend is the backstabber friend. Who wants to be known as a backstabber!? It’s really kind of crazy how much effort the cyberstalking culture takes to harass me with allusions. It’s to the point where I question my sanity. However, even before I went to get this oil, oil was alluded to by someone at the garage where I might eventually change my oil. My interpretations could be wrong, but I don’t think they are. So I purchase the kit and oil and as I walk out the store, the guy who helped me said, “pedo.” I just smirked.