D Talks #80

3-31-2022

DMV

Went to the DMV. Cyberstalking culture followed me there before, and followed me there again. I entered the building, got in line and waited. I can’t recall much, but I was aware people knew who I was and knew I was there. Center of attention. I get a number, fill out paperwork, and wait until my number is called. Eventually the verbal harassment gets to a point where I hear a couple of voices that are not being very nice. People can say things, but these voices seemed like an attack. Like a real effort to make me scared, saying stuff my father says, so I know it’s being instigated by my father. It seemed like my father was actively feeding the people around me information to harass me. Information was also being channeled by the friend who I reached out to at the end of 2015, and the friend who was or is in the country illegally; both were close high school friends.

I was keeping to myself, ignoring most of what was being said, until these guys seemed to be actually making a real attempt to intimidate me. One guy says “te haces” which is something my father says and means someone is playing dumb. I also hear “check.” So I look up to see who was saying this stuff, and these people weren’t even Latino, they were African; I could tell by their accent. I say, “you guys aren’t even Latino.” I then say, “njema,” which a reply to a greeting in Swahili. They seemed a bit surprised. I then say, “what am I doing, I should be tweeting about this.” Here is that tweet thread:

I think tweets will be my go-to in the future for these kind of situations. I’m also considering Instagram Live Streams because I’ll be able to capture so much more. This blog is to supplement the tweets.

I questioned why would a couple of people who are of an African culture be harassing me. The only thing I could think of is one of my supervisors is also of an African culture.

After sending out the first tweet, there was an odd silence. I figured it was a reaction to the tweets.

Before those guys said “te haces” and “check,” I noticed a number was called but wasn’t on the screen. I figured it was an effort to harass me, but I wasn’t sure. So I figured I might as well tweet about it.

There was more verbal harassment, but it wasn’t to intimidate. There was also some people saying things that were positive. Then someone said a supervisors name. Then I thought, you know, the bullying, the targeting of me, is very Nazi like. This treatment is somewhat typical, but also might be a reaction to my tweet saying “high tech Nazis,” convincing me that the odd moments of silence were responses to the tweets. I sent out the tweet mentioning Nazism. I then realize, after sending the tweet, that the person right in front of me, was a tall person who could possibly be German. That convinced me more that this treatment was a reaction to my recent tweets from days before. The guy who resembled a tall German was standing right underneath the screen where numbers are displayed. I found the numbers kind of odd, especially since one of the numbers was missing. I considered taking a photo, because it was a perfect moment to do so. I activated the camera on my phone and the people sitting to my right seem to have reacted to me preparing to take a photo.

Sending out tweets and taking photos didn’t seem to have been anticipated. A lot more occurred that I can’t recall. Nothing terrible, but this following of me and cyberstalking should not be happening.

Anyway, so my number was called and the lady at the desk was super sweet. I think I heard her say “pedo,” but whatever…

4-11-2022

Transition Classes

I’m in a predicament. I’m undergoing a process and it has taken quite a bit of time. One of the steps in the process is to take Transition Classes.

Unfortunately I was informally found unfit. I want to be found fit. I can contest the findings and that will include a formal review. Along with contesting the findings, I can include a rebuttal statement. I wrote this rebuttal statement and I’ve been getting reactions to it from the cyberstalking culture. The cyberstalking culture is using these virtual transition classes as a means to react to that rebuttal statement; today was the first day of the three day course.

One of the things I wrote in this rebuttal statement was how some of my statements to doctors were distorted, mischaracterized, or fabricated. An example of the mischaracterization of my statements was regarding the verbal harassment; a doctor described the verbal harassment as auditory hallucinations. In reaction to this, some guy in the virtual classroom intentionally acted like he was on the spectrum, said he was hearing voices, as if to mock me and spy girl. I started the voice recorder to capture the audio from this virtual class. At that point, I was already aware I was being watched in my living space by this virtual class, somehow. So these people were aware that I started the voice recorder, and their behavior and the verbal harassment changed; less obvious (or not), but I still captured some audio to demonstrate the reactions to the rebuttal statement and the nature of the harassment I experience by the cyberstalking culture.

Here is a sound clip from the audio recording. Although I don’t appreciate the verbal attacks, harassment, attention, or whatever, I must say that sometimes the behavior is hilarious:

Wow. I silenced a couple of sections of the audio clip which allowed me to review that segment of the audio recording and I’m picking up on a lot that I didn’t notice at all. Initially I was simply going to provide a sound clip of the guy sounding like he was on the spectrum, but then I started to pick up on more implications. Some of the implications are obvious, while others make me question if I’m over thinking. I’m now imagining that this segment might have been planned and scripted. Luckily I started the voice recorder. This segment is from the first voice recording. I have two voice recordings of the seven hour class, one is about 40 minutes and the other is about 2 hours and 40 minutes. There was a lot that was said, and it’s clear I only picked up on some during the class. With audio recordings, they are very time consuming to edit and then note for the reader of this blog. I was hoping I could simply clip a segment and simply note the obvious clear implications, however, after reviewing this segment of the clip, I can’t help to note more observations; that tends to happen with audio recordings. What I’m figuring is, it’s almost impossible for me to capture everything everyone says; the implications. Since my story is so well known, providing these sound clips to the blog for others to hear, others might pick up on things that I either didn’t capture or didn’t note.

• The sound clip starts with the instructor saying “doctrine” instead of “document” and I think this is because when the cyberstalking culture wants to avoid legal trouble, they convey they want to handle the matter via the church. I don’t know how to describe this behavior, it’s been taking me some time to put this behavior into words: taking the easy way out, avoiding consequences, or even accountability, as if to save face. Given the hostility of the cyberstalking culture, asking for sympathy is… I’m not sure, I want to say hypocritical, but I’m not sure if that’s the best word.
• Then the guy who is intentionally sounding like he’s on the spectrum talks, says that people are talking and stuff, to mock me. I think he makes an intentional fart sound and then pauses, which is kind of funny. I’m being monitored in my living space. What do people do in their living space? They might fart. So when I fart, in my living space, the people who monitor me let everyone know to try to embarrass me.
• 1m2s instructor says something under his breath
• Then some guy who sounds nerdy starts talking. This might be to mock me.
• The instructor oddly says “right here” and then the nerdy guy, or someone else, taps something and aggressively whispers something
• The instructor sounds like he says “virgin” instead of “merging”
• After guy who sounds nerdy says “thank you” instructor says “LA” which is an allusion to something, but I’m not sure what. Then the guy who sounds nerdy clearly says “asshole! app!”
• Then a girl starts talking, and she kind of sounds like my step cousin; the one who our families hooked us up, essentially. She starts by intentionally saying “animals.” So with the guy who sounds nerdy, and everything else that has been said, I believe this is a reaction to my last vlog where I talked about Starbucks. My father basically told me not to work and focus on school. Eventually I worked as a tutor at my high school, which was cool. After high school, a cousin asked me if I wanted to work at a pet store. I worked at Petsmart for about a month, taking care of the animals, primarily the fish, until my father demanded that I go on that family road trip I mentioned in a vlog. So I didn’t work at Starbucks, but I worked at Petsmart taking care of fish, and I’m only making this realization within the last couple of weeks, and I could be wrong of this being uncoincidental, but after this girl who sounds like my step cousin saying “animals,” I think the realization is more accurate than not.
• Then it appears to me the instructor and the girl who sounds like my step cousin are making allusions to the height of the child abuse. I’ll write about what exactly happened the night at the height of the child abuse, but basically our parents told my step cousin to stay near my room at the end of the hall. So after I was violently yelled at for no reason while using a pressure washer (a buzz word I mentioned and said I’d get to) to remove green algae from the concrete sidewalk in the front yard while my father was in the garage because he couldn’t go to the front yard because he was on house arrest, I went to my room and my step cousin was at the end of the hall, by herself, on all fours, like the dog I used to play with. I waved for her to come to my room. One reason I know that everyone, and I mean everyone, knew of the child abuse, before the height of the child abuse, and knew of the planning of the night of the height of the child abuse, and knew exactly what happened during the night of the height of the child abuse, is because the same way I waved to my step cousin is the same way the ex girlfriend’s stepdad waved to me to go to their van from my parents car after dinner at a restaurant, and it’s the same way my cousin waved to me before he attacked me.
• Then the girl who sounds like my step cousin says “ow” and then the instructor sounds dramatic saying “make sure you’re ok.” The cyberstalking culture wants me to be so emotionally devastated by the child abuse, which is kind of evil, but at the same time, I understand that those who partook in the child abuse feel bad. I’m not even mad.
• Then the instructor says “I’m with you… I’m with you” which I think is hilarious. He says this as if he’s caring to someone who is severely hurt and near death, dying, or trying to stay alive.

Then earlier in the class, there was a girl, probably Latina, who kind of sounded like my eldest sister. She had been an active participant in the class. She repeatedly mentioned how family is supportive and is always there for you. This is a reaction to my rebuttal statement. In the rebuttal statement, I mentioned how I joined the military to get away from my abusive cyberstalking family. I mentioned this because of a statement a doctor distorted. I was describing the harassment I experience to this doctor. I mentioned how the cafeteria was harassing me on behalf of my parents. I said my family would abuse me by means of food. Why would my family abuse me by means of food? Because as my sister reasoned with me, everybody has to eat. Eventually I stopped eating my parents food, or anything they bought me because they’d have the restaurants do stuff to the food to harass me. To continue the harassment by means of food, my parents would encourage people at the grocery store to partake in the abuse. Anyway, so the doctor wrote “that food had been planted by [my] family for [me] to consume.” That is a total distortion of what I said. In the rebuttal statement I explained that it was a chore of mine to water the household plants. My abusive cyberstalking family is promoting the human trafficking of me. This doctor must have been in communication with my family and must have distorted my statement to implicitly voice the desires of my family. Even though I’m an adult and a professional, my family promotes this idea of me returning home, not working, and doing chores for allowance; essentially making me their slave. This is the reason I believe the doctor intentionally distorted my statement. I don’t know what the intent was, but it was at the expense of my desires, my rights, and the facts. This is the reason I believe this girl repeatedly talked about how family is “always there for you” as if to suggest my family members are not abusive cyberstalkers; I doubt she knows my family, and I don’t know why she’d have any interest in voicing and promoting the interest of my abusive cyberstalking family. (I’m writing this during the virtual class and the voice recording and people in the class seem to be reacting to the draft of this blog)

This girl, I’ll refer to her as family-girl, spoke again during the class after the start of the voice recording and she said something odd; she mentioned starting an ice cream truck business and having a liquor license, I guess to sell alcoholic ice cream. I have to review that segment of the voice recording, however, I’m convinced this is another reaction to the rebuttal statement. Another distorted statement of mine by the doctor was that my family “had been employing [my] classmates and instructors to ‘spy and conspire against [me].’” Again, I was describing the harassment to this doctor. I was describing the cyberstalking culture and network, and how my family and friends back home speak with the people around me and encourage them to harass me. I didn’t say “employing.” The reason this doctor wrote “employing” was to continue to implicitly voice the desires of my family. My family is promoting an idea of me returning back home and starting a construction company, family operated, where my old high school friends could be employees. I’ve mentioned before, I’ve tried. Now it’s simply an idea being promoted to encourage the human trafficking of me; this doctor’s distortion of my statements is case in point. In the rebuttal statement I wrote that starting a business takes a lot of effort. My father even indirectly said he wasn’t very interested in putting a lot of effort in running a business. My family and others interfered with my efforts to apply for a contractor’s license, which makes it clear they are not serious about this idea of a business. My family also created a buzz word, which is the name of a friend, and it alludes to their desire for this friend to have a contractor’s license and not me. To counter this clarification of my distorted statement and the explanation of human trafficking efforts in the rebuttal statement, I believe family-girl was told to say something about “ice cream” and “liquor license.” “Ice cream” alludes to a high school friend of mine. “Liquor license” alludes to a bar my father invested in. Here is family-girl making these possible allusions:

Upon reviewing this segment of the audio recording, my understanding of the efforts, intentions, and motives are more clear. So, I was informally found unfit. I could accept those findings, but I can’t, for many reasons. The findings are false. I enjoy this form of employment with the military. Even though I might have gained much more publicity throughout the last couple of years and I might be able to find a good employer, there is no guarantee. The cyberstalking hasn’t stopped. The cyberstalking will continue, and the cyberstalking culture will follow me. I joined the military to evade abuse and oppression. I was terminated under pretext by several bad employers. My perspective on the informal findings of unfit is that it’s just one step closer to being terminated under pretext, once again, because of the cyberstalking culture. However, the cyberstalking culture, primarily my family, mostly my father, has different desires for me; this demonstrates they do not understand the rights of an individual and freedom; they don’t know American values. When I say “they,” that includes my father, and all of the countless big tech cyberstalking enablers; they don’t know American values, because if they did, these cyberstalking abilities would have never been created and enabled. My family wants for me to accept the informal findings of unfit, move back home, act like they are serious about starting a business, and don’t want me to file an administrative claim for being falsely imprisoned. By the way, can you believe that I haven’t spoke with my parents since joining the military? All of my communication with them has been indirect and implicit via the cyberstalking culture. Anyway, that is how I interpret Sound Clip 2, but here are my notes:

• After family-girl mentions “ice cream truck” and “alcohol,” she randomly says “I love it,” which is an allusion to my father. I don’t even know if I have an accurate interpretation of this or not, but I think my mom was making fun of my father, something to do with McDonalds, and I think he said that was one of the reasons he encouraged the rape of my mother. Can you believe big tech really gave my father the ability the cyberstalk me!? [Can you believe the Nazi’s put Hitler in charge?]
• The instructor says “oh how do you steal…” and I think this is to imply that I am stealing money by filing an administrative claim for being falsely imprisoned; another fallacy. Then the instructor says “ice cream and field track” instead of “ice cream and alcohol” I guess. “Field track” or “track” is a buzz word. My step cousin ran track in high school. I know she’d go to tournaments and stuff. There’s this rumor that she didn’t do so well towards the end or something, and people are suggesting it’s because of the child abuse, but pointing the finger at me, which makes no sense. Maybe she lost interest, I’m not sure, I have absolutely no idea how her track experience was. However, to blame it on the child abuse would be to blame our parents. To be honest, I don’t think my step cousin is mad at me. She’s caught in the middle. I’m not even mad about anything. Things were okay before the cyberstalking, and hating me became profitable. However, there’s this idea constantly being promoted, and it’s to hinder my performance, and I don’t know how else to explain it, other than to say that people desire for me to become not interested and not make an effort to perform because of the child abuse.
• Then family-girl mentions the liquor license. She purposefully says “confusion” instead of “confusing” which might be an allusion to a soccer teammate of mine. He would add “-sion” and “-tion” to the end of words to jokingly sound like he was speaking English. This reminds me of a time my father, my soccer teammate, and I went to Mexico. We stayed at my aunts apartment, and while up on the balcony, I said something in Spanish I shouldn’t have said aloud about a woman nearby; I didn’t think she could hear me. Then sometime after, my soccer teammate and I were waiting outside of the apartment complex gate waiting for my father because he had the keys. That woman approached us as she was making her way to her apartment, but before entering the apartment complex, she scolded at my soccer teammate. It was odd because it seemed like she might have been scolding at my friend about what I said, and not at me because it didn’t seem like I knew Spanish, but she wasn’t channeling any of her scolding at me. So then I figured she was scolding at my soccer teammate for teaching me those words in Spanish; he didn’t teach me those words. My soccer teammate replied to her a bit assertively; I figured he was insisting he didn’t teach me those words. In hindsight, I do think that’s what the conversation was about. I think she might have even pointed at me during the conversation. However, when I asked my soccer teammate what she said, he told me it was about the gate, probably because when she pointed at me, she could have also been pointing at the gate. It could have been about the gate, but I’m convinced it’s about what I said. I think on a deeper level though, she might have been alluding to the child abuse and also implicitly scolding at my soccer teammate, as if to suggest that my own family and friends are responsible for the child abuse, and to disapprove.
• This class is about things to do after the military, and at this point in the class, entrepreneurship is being talked about, hence the allusions to the construction business I could start, so family-girl talks about her business idea. She could be serious, but it really doesn’t seem so; she sounds sarcastic. Then someone in the background oddly takes a drink of water. This could allude to a time in elementary school. A motivational speaker was presenting and he swore that he could drink water and talk at the same time. The several times that he tried to drink water and talk at the same time throughout his presentation, he would end by saying “I can’t.” What I believe is being alluded to specifically is when this presenter was singing a cover of the song Respect by Aretha Franklin. For some reason, I was singing along, and the presenter gave me the mic to say “R E S P E C T” and I shouted it. I guess it was really loud by the reactions I got afterward. The cyberstalking culture desires for me not to have respect, and it’s something they’ve been promoting for some time.
• The instructor says “look at the numbers.” This might be an allusion to my stepmother because she’s pretty diligent and thorough with bills and taxes and stuff. Then family-girl says “which… which” twice as if to mock me when I stutter at times. This is also an allusion to my stepmother because one time when I was a kid, really young, I was teasing my stepmother and called her a “witch” before my father told me to stop. I wasn’t trying to be mean, I was trying to be playful, but I guess she got upset. Then the stutter is also to allude to intimidation. Family-girl starts talking about environments and states. She says “you know what I mean” which is something my father tells people to say to hint to me a demand by threat. At 0:54 some guy in the back ground says “don’t shoot.” So the cyberstalking culture, which is driven by my family, is conducting human trafficking and is trying to make me move back home, and one strategy is to intimidate me; not supportive. The fallacy is that I must be careful of where I go, or I must be fearful, because people are going to be out to get me and other stuff. Yeah, it’s unfortunate the the cyberstalking culture instigates negative behavior, but if it wasn’t for the cyberstalking, I’d experience much less negativity. Like I mentioned before, being that the cyberstalking culture follows me everywhere, I almost feel at home wherever I go. I don’t know where I’d move to in the future, I hope to serve for as much time as possible, but I know most people are good, I know people know my story and the truth, so I really have no worries. If anything, there have been times where I have been very well received, and that’s what the cyberstalking culture detests, unfortunately.
• The instructor says “prospectus.” I’ve never really heard the word outside of the context of stock investing. I think this might be an allusion to investing in stocks. There seems to be another fallacy being promoted by the cyberstalking culture, and it’s an allusion to gaining the funds I should receive from lawsuits by investing my savings in stocks instead. The purpose of lawsuits isn’t to obtain funds. The idea is mostly being promoted to avoiding accountability, and also suggests that all I’m after is money.
• Family-girl says “I’ve been doing this a long time.” I’m guessing some of this is scripted. It’s probably also live information being fed to these speakers by people of the cyberstalking culture, primarily my family and friends back home. The following days, on the 12th and 13th of April, my family and friends, to include the ex girlfriend as well, seemed to have been actively channeling information to the class and the instructors. I’m not exactly sure why, but the rebuttal statement was due on the 13th of April, and I think they were trying to get me to change my mind and not send the rebuttal statement and accept the findings of unfit. I’m not sure why family-girl would say this. She’s presenting a business idea, but she doesn’t seem sincere, and sounds sarcastic. So my best guess is she’s trying to say, on behalf of someone, that I don’t have a lot of experience at something, but act like I do…. I’m not sure.
• Family-girl then says “you think I have your ducks in a row to be honest.” Again, sounds sarcastic, so it seems like there are implications. To have your ducks in a row means to get everything ready for a next step, so I think she’s voicing on behalf of the people who want me to accept the findings of unfit and get ready for the next step, to include moving back home.
• The instructor says something about “homework tonight” and then at 1:34 he says something that sounds like “dealio” which rhymes with the name of a high school friend. I think he’s calling this friend a procrastinator, not sure why.
• 1:48 someone whispers “stop” and then says something again at 1:52. Then at 2:03 the same whisperer says “that’s you!”
• Then family-girl talks about choosing work and balancing money and happiness, which I could understand, and the instructor agrees and goes on to explain from his experience. However, I think this is my family and friends voicing their desire for me to not make a lot of money. It’s an expression of envy and the desire to deprive someone of their right to fulfill their personal pursuits; I believe it might be that sentiment that starts socialism. Although I might understand the desire that’s being expressed, I’m not even sure why it’s being expressed.

The second voice recording started after lunch. There were more single buzz words being said, which is a typical form of the verbal bullying I experience. Here is a sound clip of a possible implication and a buzz word… so again, I can’t help but to gather a bunch of observations while combing through the voice recordings. Although this indirect verbal attention is unwelcome, a lot of this is funny to me.

• 0:13 some guy in the background says, or plays an audio clip, and it’s a bit dramatic. Then the instructor says to mute mics, and then says “thank you” and it could be one of those insincere “thank you’s” the cyberstalking culture uses. The cyberstalking culture uses “thank you” to deceitfully make a demand in the guise of gratitude… it took me a while to describe that in words. I’m not sure of the implications of the drama or the “thank you” but it just seems odd to me.
• 0:43 girl1 starts talking, asking the instructor questions. She seems a bit insincere and seems to be making several allusions on behalf of the cyberstalking culture, primarily my family.
  • 0:52 “it brought me in here… no” sounds sarcastic, could be alluding to my behavior when I was young. Then it sounds like she says “now I don’t get… that.” I think what this person is trying to say is, because of my behavior when I was young, that I don’t have the freedom of an individual, and I don’t have to right to fulfill my personal pursuits.
  • 0:57 some odd voices in the background
  • Throughout the sound clip she says “yeah” randomly, oddly, as if to purposefully be out of tune with the conversation. This “yeah” is a buzz word. It started with the abusive construction contractor employer in San Francisco. He’d bully me, and make allusions to the child abuse at times. However, there was one time I was on the phone with him while I was on the computer, multitasking. I tuned out for a moment and focused on the computer, and said “yeah” when I tuned back into the conversation, which was kind of out of tune with the conversation. I think I heard what he said, or not… I was just focused on the computer and said “yeah” out of tune with the conversation. Somehow I think he thinks I was distracted by the bullying or something, and it’s the reason why he started this buzz word. So girl1 is making allusions to the child abuse, bullying me, and then oddly says “yeah” to suggest that the bullying is really distracting to me.
  • 1:11 there’s an odd noise in the background, like someone exhaling while saying something, but the breath is louder than the voice. They might have said “ice” as in ICE.
  • 1:16 girl1 says “is it in the ink now” instead of probably “is it in the link now” which sounds like an intentional misspeak to make an allusion. I think what she’s trying to say is that the motive of the cyberstalking culture is to bully me to the point where I don’t vlog anymore and simply write, blog, hence saying “ink” to allude to writing or typing. It’s really bizarre how there is a persistent effort to deter me from vlogging, which involves bullying by using the child abuse or other things to embarrass me. This effort confirms to me that many people must be watching the vlogs, and the influence is far greater than I can imagine simply because I have no accurate metrics at my disposal.
  • 1:19 instructor oddly makes a “ch” sound. She says, “you’re in the ‘ch,’ you’re in the class now.” I think she was trying to say “you’re in the sh*t.” I think that’s from my younger sister. One time she was talking about how someone was “with the sh*t.” I guess that means, like, even with my achievements and even though I’m a good person, I don’t have the freedom to fulfill my personal pursuits because I’m held back by some kind of mental barrier, which is just a misunderstanding of freedom and American values.
  • 1:32 girl1 says “I’ll pull… pull one.” I think she’s telling me to masturbate. Since I’m being observed, people know when I masturbate. I rarely do. When I do, everyone around me knows. I masturbated for a week and people were implicitly telling me to stop. Then I stopped and people have been telling me to masturbate. For example, the following day, I exercised in my bedroom during the class and people were implicitly telling me to masturbate, so I wouldn’t have the energy to exercise.
  • 1:38 girl1 says “so we’re not all weaving, right?” I think this is an allusion to illegal immigrants being deported. The behavior of when I was young that might have been alluded to earlier might have been with a girl who was the daughter of family friends who were illegal immigrants. Their son was a soccer teammate. This family used to really like me. They invited me to go camping with them, but I felt bad about my behavior with their daughter so I told my father that she was exhibiting that behavior to me. My father played along; he knew I was the one who was actually exhibiting the behavior. My father called these family friends and told them what I reported, and they all played along. It wasn’t really talked about and was pretty much ignored. I heard one random comment by the mother talking about her daughter’s behavior. I figured they were just trying to not embarrass me. Like I’ve mentioned before, the child abuse was a long time in the making, and my behavior was being fostered. I’m not sure why she said “weaving” instead of “leaving,” it could be an allusion to several things.
  • 1:51 girl1 says “broke… don’t look bi” under her breath after saying people were confused. I guess with the verbal harassment she’s saying that I’m emotionally hurt by saying “broke” and then being emotionally hurt affects my sexual orientation.
  • 1:57 “hurt” from someone in the background, probably girl1
  • 2:02 girl1 says “lot of people left… and do something… off.” “lot of people left” probably alludes to one of the couple of times in 2017 when I realized I wasn’t lost in the crowd. I’ll get to those times in the vlogs. One of those times was at a Giants game, and another time was at a small performance wrestling show. This might an allusion to the small performance wrestling show. Again, I knew I was getting a lot of attention online, even though wasn’t even very social online, but I still didn’t really understand how well known I was. I was so unaware of how well known I was that I thought I was lost in crowds, and then realized later on, and in this case during the event, that I actually wasn’t lost in the crowd; everybody knew who I was and that I was present. So at this wresting show, I believe my cousin wanted the people of the show to bully me, to the point where it would break my confidence, or, I don’t know; cause some kind of harm. At the show, I was shouting things that I wouldn’t say if I knew I was very well known. Eventually, I realized that I was not only not lost in the crowd, but I was actually being bullied by the show as well. My shouting changed, and for what I recall, people started to leave; my cousin felt bad and so did the people of the show. The “and do something” I’m not really sure, but I think she’s trying to say that I need to masturbate. Then she clearly purposely says “off.” “Off” is a buzz word that I’ve explained before; it’s a deceitful way to silence me in the guise of a supposed warranted authoritative discipling.
  • 2:20 girl1 oddly says “ok” with a strange mocking high pitch voice
  • 2:28 girl1 says “please stop… stop” and I think this alludes to a time when I was being bullied. In the 8th grade some guy hit my face a couple of times, and I told him to stop; I didn’t hit him back. Then someone else tried to hit my face a couple of time, and I didn’t hit him back, but I put him in an arm lock. Then eventually I got into that fight that I talked about in a vlog, and I never saw the first guy who hit my face again; he stopped showing up to class.
• 2:55 second instructor says “here’s what you do”… other instructor says “have you let go” in regards to technical assistance. Seems odd. I think this is an allusion to a conversation I had with Apple technical assistance regarding the cyberstalking. I was being guided through a troubleshooting procedure. I voice recorded the conversation and uploaded it to a blog back in 2019. The technician seemed to have been alluding to suicide.
• 5:20 guy mentions “breakfast beers.” There seems to be this desire for me to not only drink alcoholic beverages, but to also become an alcoholic. I do not drink alcoholic beverages, and to be honest, it feels great to check zero when asked about how many alcoholic beverages I drink per month, or whatever.
• 5:30 the instructor oddly says “I can already hear you” which it doesn’t seem fitting, then she oddly says “that’s it” which also doesn’t seem fitting. I think what they are implying is that they achieved their goal of making me emotionally stressed with all the verbal bullying. So this instructor is saying that she could hear in my voice that I’m hurt, and saying “that’s it” is something said by the cyberstalking culture, and it’s an expression of their desire for me to emotionally stressed and hurt, as if to say that’s who I really am, someone who is emotionally stressed and hurt, and not someone who is resilient. Pretty abusive behavior, but to be honest, I don’t even think I captured all that; I wasn’t even really paying attention.
• 6:08 the second instructor says “I can see your screen.” Like I mentioned before, I was convinced that this class was observing me in my room and also observing my computer screen somehow. My guess is they were probably sent a link to view my screen.

So here is the next audio clip and it contains several smaller segments from the two hour recording.

• 00:00 some guy says “off” and “blowner” under his breath. “Blowner” was a buzz word that started a couple of years ago. It’s a mesh of the words “blowjob” and “loner.”
• 00:06 some other guy says “he is” which is another buzz word or phrase. “he is” is usually said to say “he is… a pedophile,” I think, because it’s most likely not anything positive. I haven’t actually heard anybody say the second portion of the phrase.
• 00:09 family-girl says she wants to “tear down a wall” in her house “and build on it.” Doesn’t make sense to me. I think “tear down a wall” alludes to illegal immigration. Then “build on it” alludes to my high school girlfriend. She mentioned how the Spaniards went to, what is now Mexico, in the 1500’s and built churches on top of the indigenous pyramids. Mexico became a country in the 1800’s. I don’t know how true this is. I just searched the Internet briefly and could only find one example. I guess she said this to portray brown complexion Latinos as victims of society; I don’t even think I picked up on what she was portraying back in high school, if that’s what she was portraying, and didn’t realize the idea until after the cyberstalking started. Since the cyberstalking started, the cyberstalking culture eventually started to promote this idea, case in point, to portray certain Latinos as victims of society, and to justify the child abuse of me. I really liked this high school girlfriend. We talked about how our relationship would be after high school, going to different universities in the same area, but she ended the relationship, and it was my first break up. The story is (since the cyberstalking started) that this girlfriend didn’t really like me, and that she was out to get me from the beginning. I don’t know how true that is. It was much more difficult for me to focus on school while in this relationship. I’d go home to do homework and was just distracted thinking about her. I still did well, but my grades weren’t as good my very last semester of high school. For what I recall, I got straight A’s throughout high school, except for the first semester and the last semester. The last semester I took a biology class that was a bit more difficult than the standard intro class, mostly because someone told me that it was a transferable class to the university level, and since I wanted to be a doctor, I figured I might as well take the class. It was a bit more difficult than I anticipated. There were three people in my grade who had the highest GPAs, and I think it was because of this class that I was probably under the top two. It’s whatever. I was accepted to a university I didn’t expect to be accepted to; in hindsight, I probably would have been accepted to more universities if I applied, but I was distracted with this relationship. I could have probably gotten a better GPA if I wasn’t in this relationship, or not, I don’t know. The breakup was difficult, and that was probably the only bad part of that relationship.
• 00:17 conversation and noises by a couple of people in the background. Not too sure what is being said, or why it’s being said, but then the instructor mutes the mics of those people and says that muting was easier than before. The conversation is quite incoherent, then random words are being said.
• 01:07 family-girl talks about financial goals. I like her voice, she seems cool and funny. She could be making several allusions and implications, but I’m getting exhausted. The one thing I’ll note though is that she seems to be tapping on her desk or table which might be an allusion to the movie “Wolf of Wall Street” and specifically the scene where Jordan makes a call and sells stocks and he’s loudly tapping on his desk during the call.
• 02:18 instead of saying “excel” some guy says “incel” and then makes a fart sound. Then some girl says she uses an app, and she is talking like my sister. My younger sister would purposefully misspeak to sound cute. In this example, this person says an “uh” like my sister. She says, “it’s uh called…” Then there are some random single worded buzz words being said randomly: “balls” and “eye” for example. “Balls” is a buzz word and it’s used in a sense to love bomb me, as if to say I’m brave. “Eye” is a buzz word to allude to the phrase “eye for an eye” and the way it’s used is very flawed, doesn’t make sense, and demonstrates the oppressiveness of the cyberstalking culture.
• 02:48 the instructor purposefully says “little albert” instead of “little alert” or “little report” meshing together “alert” and “report.” The reason she would say “Albert” is because I have a step cousin who went to prison. He was having angry outbursts, which eventually led him to serve prison time. The cyberstalking culture, in addition to wanting to portray me as someone who is emotionally weak, also want to portray me as someone who is emotionally violent. Or, I think the narrative is, they want to portray me as someone who is emotionally violent, and the cyberstalking culture has heroically humbled me into someone who is emotionally weak. That narrative is used when the cyberstalking culture wants to justify their bullying, abuse, and oppressive behavior. However, the flip-flop between the portrayal of me as someone who is demonic and someone who is feeble is constant, and the flip-flopping is done when convenient.
• 02:35 I think someone in the background makes a sound that I’ve described before. I can’t find how to spell the word, but the sound is called a “key-I” and depending on the person, it could sound like someone is growling “hike” or “ite” or it could just sound like a growl, which it is essentially. It’s a growl to endure the pain of an impact and to also channel more force in a strike. A great example of this that is not only used by martial artists, is tennis players. You can hear tennis players clearly making a similar vocal sound to channel more force. After possibly making this sound, this person says “I’m a loner” and then says “don’t hit like that.” This is an allusion to my karate instructor
• 03:08 some girl starts talking about death, and a dog starts barking, and she tells the dog to stop barking. I’m not sure if the sound was actually from her dog, or from a sound clip, but it appears this dog’s name is “prison.” There’s this fallacy that I’m in prison. The delusional narrative that the cyberstalkers want to promote is that I’m serving a prison time and now I’m being released.

During the second and third classes the cyberstalking culture, primarily my family and friend back home, were still harassing via third parting; the third party being the instructors and class attendees.