4-21-22
Virtual Classes
So, I have two more days of virtual classes, for the second of two transition courses. I wondered if the cyberstalking would continue after the last blog. Today is the first of the remaining two days, and the cyberstalking has definitely continued; no surprised.
I’m not voice recording, because what more do I need to demonstrate… Someone is whispering verbal harassment as I’m typing this blog during the class. Seems like there was a morning teacher, and now there is an afternoon teacher. During the first portion of the class there was a discussion about soft skills and hard skills. People started to chime in. I wondered if being someone who isn’t easily corruptible is a soft skill, and if it is a soft skill, what is that skill called. So I searched the Internet, utilizing the search engine of one of the big tech cyberstalking enablers (which was most likely enabled by corrupt insiders), and found a list of soft skills. “Integrity” was listed and it seemed to be the one skill that would be mostly associated with being not corruptible. So I searched the Internet again for a word which would describe someone as being not corruptible, and I found “incorruptible integrity.” As I’ve mentioned before, the cyberstalking culture easily corrupts others, either by peer pressure, indoctrination, or by self choice. I’d say the cyberstalking culture is a good litmus test for corruptibility. [Nazism keeps coming to mind. If I’m recalling correctly, the reason I call the cyberstalking enablers, “enablers,” is because of a blog I wrote about wondering why people were so easily partaking in the harassment of me and I coincidentally found the answer on an old handout from an English class in high school called “Hitler’s Enablers,” or something similar.]
Reflecting on the last blog, I realized something; I think I have some kind of hard evidence of the cyberstalking. Firstly, the doctor’s statements are an obvious distortion of my statements. The medical documentation was also clearly falsified. Why were my statements be distorted? The doctors must have been in communication with my family. Nothing else explains why my statements were distorted, nor the way in which they were distorted. I try to think of further reasons for this distortion. For example, it might be possible this doctor was trying to implicitly convey on paper that the cyberstalking and cyberstalking culture are actually real, in effort to help me, by providing me with some evidence, but that’s a stretch of the imagination… or is it? The distortion seems obvious, making it plausible it was purposeful. As mentioned before, I don’t know what the intentions were, I hope the intentions were good, but at the end of the day, it was at the expense of the facts. Secondly, the voice recordings from the virtual class contain verbal harassment, that of which clearly demonstrate third party harassment. Anyone who doesn’t know my story would find the oddity of the random words very bizarre; that of which I could provide an explanation for and align with the cyberstalking and harassment I describe. What’s more, I believe my hypothesis of the ex girlfriend’s stepdad giving my father the cyberstalking abilities is evident in one of the voice recordings. In one of the voice recordings one guy tells another guy “here’s a queen.” The guy sounds like Jack Black from School of Rock. This ex girlfriend’s stepdad kind of resembles Jack Black. I think what is meant by “here’s a queen” is, ‘here are the cyberstalking abilities so that you can continue your motive of creating the next billionaire Oprah Winfrey,’ essentially. The reason my stepmother’s family colluded to abuse me was because they were corrupted by the idea of making my step cousin the next billionaire Oprah Winfrey. Quite obviously, in chess the queen is the most powerful piece. The cyberstalking abilities are quite powerful abilities. It appears this portrayal is an attempt to sugarcoat the wrong of the cyberstalking abilities.
Failure
I’ll change topics, and write about something I’ve been wanting to address, to give my side of the story, to clarify any misunderstandings, and to also describe a theme of the cyberstalking culture.
The cyberstalking culture wants to see me fail. Sabotage is a theme of the cyberstalking culture; I’m not sure if I wrote this in the blogs already, but I’ve mentioned this in rebuttal and harassment statements. I’ve already explained that I didn’t get good grades in elementary school and I was on a losing soccer team for several years. I got better at soccer, played on a competitive team, but was a bench player most of the time. Even though I thought I played decently during the yearly tryouts, I didn’t make the team the last time I played on a league soccer team. There are so many quotes on failure, and one is “I have failed many times, and that’s why I’m a success” which, according to the Internet, was said by Michael Jordan. So through trying and failing, I guess I developed a process to succeed and achieve. I’d say that everyone is capable of achieving their goals, and if there is one thing I can attribute my achievements to is, invested time. I’d say this idea of me being successful at everything is a fallacy and an exaggeration. Ever since this cyberstalking started, the effort to sabotage has been blatant.
Ever since I joined the military, there have been allusions to a high school friend of mine. I think I may have even written about him already, but I’m not sure. The story is, this friend of mine joined the military and medically retired after a couple of years of service. After service, he used his military benefits to get an education. He began to take computer science courses during the same time I was obtaining my degree in computer science; I was about a quarter or two from finishing my program. I wanted to help him, if I could, because I know these computer science courses are difficult. They require a lot of time and effort. He was taking computer science classes at a junior college to transfer to a university. I figured I’d go to one of the classes with him, just to see what the class had to offer, since it was in person, and my program was online. I already took a class on the subject, however, that class at the junior college was using a different computer language. So I figured, it would still be beneficial for me to take that class with my friend, help if I could, refresh myself on the material, and also learn a new computer language, especially because it’s a language I wanted to learn.
This junior college was the same junior college I went to high school at. The teacher of the course was rumored to be a bad teacher, which is another reason I wanted to help this friend. So I show up to the class, and the teacher sees that I’m there, and I was hoping he wouldn’t talk to me, but then he asked me why I was there. I said the word “audit” which has a couple of meanings. One meaning is to attend a class for no credit, and a second meaning is to inspect. Since it was rumored this teacher was a bad teacher, I think he made an effort to show me he was actually a good teacher. I do think he was actually a good teacher, very patient because he knew and demonstrated how some students in the class had gaps in their earlier education, which is probably why it was rumored this teacher was a bad teacher. I’d say we all have gaps in our education. The teacher put a math problem on the board, that of which I couldn’t answer, but someone else in the class was able to, which demonstrated a gap in my education. It’s likely the students who would say this teacher was a bad teacher weren’t ready to take the class, or weren’t taking the initiative to study outside of the class. I coincidentally learned early on that most of my learning happens outside of the class and from the book and not the teacher; I had a very short attention span and needed to block out distractions to learn. Most people who have what it takes to succeed at school, but might not be familiar with a learning process or be aware of the amount of effort required. Some may believe they are to learn from the teacher and that the book is to supplement the class. I’d say in some cases, that’s true, but in other cases, it’s the reverse, especially with math and science courses. Some teachers are willing to go the extra mile, but there are very few who are able and willing to make that effort. I think college is all about learning how to learn on your own. I know several people who graduated from the junior college in question and went to very good schools and now work with reputable companies in the industry. I decided to not take the class because it was kind of inconvenient for me since it was in person. I figured I’d still try to help my friend, if I could, and provide any advice that might help.
Sometime after that class, he was ready to transfer to a university. I know that even though he passed the classes at this junior college, the university level is more difficult, and he was aware of this as well. I don’t remember our conversation exactly, but I think I said I would still make myself available to help from a distance while he was at the university. I think he mentioned something about not wanting to return home, but I think I misheard him, and I think I mentioned the military or something; I can’t recall the conversation exactly. If I’m recalling correctly, I misheard him and to clarify I mentioned the military, and then he clarified by saying the university. [In hindsight, I think he might have been alluding to what I would say during high school. I didn’t really like my hometown and would talk about wanting to move away; somewhere nicer and safer. After college, my perception of my hometown changed because not only was I not a scared kid anymore, but my hometown actually got much nicer and safer. I grew to love my hometown. I know the area very well, and it’s still my favorite place.]
So this friend transfers to the university and he’s away for sometime. He never contacted me. The next time I met up with him, I learn that he didn’t finish his degree; I think he said it was very difficult. It was unfortunate news. He never called me for help. He might have got distracted by the university life, I’m not sure. Anyway, I’ll mention my favorite quote, or snippet from a poem: “triumph and disaster are the same imposter.” This high school friend is actually a good person. I’d say of all my high school friends, he was the kindest of them all, and it’s the reason he was the last of my high school friends that I, cut off, because, he was eventually corrupted by the cyberstalking culture.
So now the cyberstalking culture alludes to this friend to express the desire for me to leave the military in a similar fashion. In addition to the desire for me to leave the military, another reason, and probably the main reason, this high school friend is alluded to is because I supposedly expressed a desire for this friend to not succeed at the university, which is so not true, that is so not like me; what I said is being mischaracterized and taken out of context. I believe in education and helping people succeed at school so much that I’d sacrifice my fun time, or just my time in general, to help. Not too long ago, I helped a roommate, even though he was being passive aggressive, and he later eventually just stopped trying to befriend me. It wasn’t in his nature to be a bully or mean, but because of the cyberstalking culture, he started to be mean… I recently helped my sister… I even gave my computer to a cousin because he was interested in learning how to code.
4-22-22
Virtual Classes
It’s the morning, before the class has officially started, and there seems to be very odd activity. There is some background noise (seemed to be music at times, or probably most of the time), and it seems to be because someone hasn’t muted their microphone. So very strange, but the instructor unmuted all the mics and asked everyone to mute themselves; after that request, there were a lot of different background noises. Yet after that supposed troubleshooting, there is still the same background noise. Then I started typing this, and now the instructors are talking about troubleshooting and the background noise. I’d think it would be easiest for the instructor to simply mute everyone, as I’m sure they have that function available to them. There’s some whispering of verbal harassments, I think, so I’m not sure what the implications are with this odd activity, if there are any implications.
The class was asked to log out and log back in. After logging back in, there are still background noises. Now finally, out of nowhere, the background noise has stopped.
If what I’m gathering is accurate, I’d describe this instructor’s indirect and implicit behavior towards me as bullying and immature. I don’t know this person. However, not only does this person know about me, it seems like he’s in communication with people to help him bully me. Why? I don’t know. I can’t avoid this bullying behavior even if I tried. I’m not cyberstalking me. So for this instructor to go along with this hate and bullying, is really unfortunate. Some people know how to be respectful, some don’t, so it’s possible this person is just a disrespectful person, but I’m not too sure. If I were to ask this person directly, or others directly, if they were implicitly saying things to harass and bully, they’d most likely say no. That’s just my perspective, I choose to not take it personally, because all I can see and understand is that the individuals who partake in this bullying behavior are being immature. What’s worse, these people have no reason to hate on me. I endured abuse as a child, and now I endure similar abuse in my adulthood, and they are partaking in that abuse; this is why I describe this bullying behavior as child abusing. Imagine, it just me, against everyone. There is no honor in partaking in the bullying. No body likes bullies, and that’s just a fact. At the core though, I know these people wouldn’t be encouraged to partake in the bullying behavior if it wasn’t for the cyberstalking. I’d also say that there is no honor in and nothing heroic about subscribing to delusions. There is this delusional idea that the people around me need to speak with my family and friends back home to “see how it works.” This has been said for quite some time. I’ve developed a “hate translator” over the years, and the hate translator interprets this as, the people around me speak with my family and friends back home to gather information to bully me. The phrase “see how it works” is just a way to sugarcoat the bullying behavior and somehow justify the behavior by describing me as some kind of machine.
I really don’t know what motivates people to constantly bully. I’m in my living space, minding my own business, yet, these very virtual classes are being used to bully… What am I missing? [It’s been a couple of days since I started writing this blog and I think I understand why there was a more intense effort to bully me, which I’ll write about soon.]