So I know I mentioned that I was somewhat anti military and anti war, it’s kind of what I was taught. However, at the same time, the teacher who was preaching this to me also said that he joined either the coast guard or national guard. So I guess his message was presented as anti military and anti war, but his actual message was, don’t be a war hungry killer psychopath, peace and compassion above all. It took me awhile to understand this message beyond how it was presented. Anyway, at the same time though, I had mixed feelings about the military because since I was young I always wanted to obtain the valor from serving. So do I wish I joined the military much sooner? Yeah. I wish I joined either after high school or college.
So how did I break away from this anti military, anti war, don’t wanna kill, don’t wanna die mentality. Well, it took me awhile to fully reason though, partially because I didn’t actually know much about the military. I only knew what I saw on television. I had a couple of cousins who joined the Marines. Overall, my understanding of what the military was very limited. I like to say that being first generation military is like being first generation college; you really don’t know what to expect. I had a friend who joined the Air Force and I had more conversations with him about the military than my cousins; I don’t even think I had any conversations with my cousins about the military. Then I had a friend who joined the Navy and we’d go to the pool to practice swimming. Then I started the process to join the Air Force, I learned that there’s a bunch of different jobs, not everyone who joins the military actually carries a gun and shoots on the front line or anything like that. You need people to maintain equipment, cook food, and a bunch of other stuff. So around that time is when I started to get a better understanding of what the military was like. And I guess I kind of knew this stuff, but I had to take some time and think a little bit deeper. So when I started talking to the recruiters, they talked to me about different jobs and I was still on the fence with anything that involved potentially killing anybody. I was taught that killing is bad, even if you’re not directly involved and don’t see it with your own eyes. The Air Force recruiter offered me a job as a mechanic, and I was comfortable with that role, and was hoping to join Red Horse later. I was done with the test, the physical, choosing a job with the Air Force, and the last step of processing is swearing in. During the swear in, we cite the United States Armed Forces Oath of Enlistment. What surprised me was the oath says “I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic.” Domestic enemies? That stuck with me. It was early 2015, I didn’t understand how the cyberstalking was happening and the cyberstalking was still somewhat in it’s early stages. I didn’t ship with the Air Force, and a year later I was living in a bugged studio and was essentially fired twice, soon to be a third time. What was I supposed to do? I reported the stalking and harassing to the police, but that didn’t stop them. I was being watched and I couldn’t do anything with out the cyberstalkers knowing and interfering, or controlling. I was under constant attack by oppressors going from one oppressive/abusive situation to another. I was being robbed of my freedoms and liberties. I was being robbed of justice. I was being robbed of my pursuit of happiness. They say you don’t know what you have until it’s gone. I’m in constant appreciation of what our country stands for and American principles. I used to be a very forgiving person, and with the cyberstalking, because my family was involved. But I realized the cyberstalking wasn’t going to stop. I have the right to defend myself and my freedoms and rights. Who ever said “Give me liberty, or give me death” was a real gangster. I’m grateful for what this country has given me and I’m willing to support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic, in whatever capacity.